Oct 3, 2017
Ugh. Having this.. lonely ass feeling. I hate feeling lonely. I don't like being dependant on the attention of others.
It really sucks because im...not very sociable. I love friends, I do, I really do but. I don't know...how to have conversations. I'm always grasping at straws. Because I spent 90% alone.
I wish I could be alone and be happy with being alone. Then being alone could be a choice, not just the circumstances I find myself in.
#huh#I'm being very emotional lately#*stares off into the distance*#I'm just...lonely#I miss talking to my friends#but I feel#like I'm annoying#yeah#I'm annoying#or rather#boring#yeah boring#sorry for being boring#I didn't grow up with tons of friends and relationships and shit#I'm always alone#because I don't know how to interact with others#talking with people is scary#I hate it#it's scary#socialization is scary#text post#super fuckin drama queen over here!!#maybe get a journal and write it in there explo#like damn
