Jan 3, 2020
burning up
i can smell the smoke from here i read Jodie’s Journey as a kid; from that day on I keep my go-bag packed - birth certificates, marriage certificate the usb backups (i need to get a harddrive soon) a few photos, a few precious things because if the fires get to me i’m screwed i live in surburbia but that doesn’t stop the worry - not when the smokes rolling down from the hills; and we’re all meant to go on
to pretend
and i can pretend just fine; paste on a smile just don’t ask me if I’m okay because i’m not
(a/n Jodie’s Journey is a novel by Colin Thiele and i’d highly recommend the read)
#jah's original poetry#constant panic attacks#are useless for getting anything done#and yet this entire two weeks of quote relaxation unquote#have been full of them#i'm scared for family and friends affected by the fires#i'm freaking out about my new job#i would prefer to...#hmmm#yeah no not finishing that thought#i'm sure you can guess it anyway#i'm so tired and done#and have no bloody inspiration for writing fic
