“Who knew that I could still have such a great New Year?”

“ god yeah, i wish with every part of me that i’d gotten along better with my ma before she passed. i wish that we could’ve made some good memories together, even if it meant me forcing it just for that happiness to temporarily be there. even if it was counterfeit, i’d give anything to have had those final moments with her where we both understood, made peace with and simply accepted each other as we were. i regret that i never knew whether in the end she did love me, despite it all. a more selfish part of me regrets that i never got to hear her say she accepted me even after my struggle with our religion and my sexuality. but more than anything, i just regret i won’t have that relationship to talk about with nari when she’s older and asks about her mom...”

BOOM CRACK THE SOUND OF MY JOINTS

my back: are you sure about that