( GRAZE ) grazing mineâs shoulders with their fingers.
It had been around a month and a half since their last mission, which in Seiferâs eyes was considered a failure. They lost a member of their team, watched them bleed out right before their eyes as Seifer held them. While this wasnât anything new to either man, something inside Seifer had broken that night. Since then, Cor had tried his hardest to get him to open up, always met with resistance and a fight.
Seifer had thrown himself hard into training, often being found on the grounds at odd hours of the day or night. Heâd been avoiding Cor again to go over the intel they had managed to gather before everything went to shit, and while Cor was a patient man, things needed to be talked about.
As he walked in, he could hear the familiar sound of warping, followed by various amounts of curse words as he saw Seifer panted slightly, leaning against one of the pillars. He made sure his steps were heard, not wanting to take the man by surprise.Â
Seifer half turned to see who had joined him, rolled his eyes and turned away. âWhat are you doing here? Donât you have some paperwork to attend to, or someone to send to the wall?âÂ
Already picking a fight. Cor wasnât surprised.
âAlready sent those to the wall that needed to go. Now I have free time. Thought Iâd spend it away from the noise thatâs the Citadel.â Cor placed a hand on his hip, shifting his weight as he looked around the area, making note of all the new holes and chips in the pillars surrounding them, before bringing his gaze back to Seifer.Â
The man huffed out a laugh as he turned around and closed the distance between them, standing just a few feet away from Cor. âThis is just another one of your ploys to try to talk to me. It ainât gonna work. Might as well quit wasting your time on me, and go bother someone else. I donât need your fucking sympathy.â
âSo youâre going to push yourself to the brink of exhaustion instead? End up in med bay, again, and ignore the doctors orders, again, to come back here to do what? Youâre not going to improve anything unless you acknowledge what happened.â Corâs gaze was icy as he caught the manâs emerald eyes. âIâm going to be forced to put you on leave until you talk to me.â
Something flickered in Seiferâs eyes, a mixture of anger, and perhaps a little pain, as Seifer got right into Corâs face, completely invading his personal space. âDo it, Sir. Put me on leave, it wonât change a damn thing. You canât fucking help me.â They stood there for a moment, Cor unmoving in his gaze and his stance.Â
âWhat? Do I need to give you more reason?â Seifer sneered as he leaned in just a little more. Cor could see the slight shake to Seiferâs body, a mixture of anger and exhaustion he surmised, and shook his head.Â
âNo... But donât complain when youâve hit rock bottom and have no one there to help you out because you refused to listen to reason. Your stubbornness to refuse help or comfort from those around you will continue to lead you on a very lonely, broken path. I thought you would have learned this by now, but apparently the only thing you can learn how to do is to fight. Iâll make sure your leave paperwork is completed when you get out of med bay again.âÂ
Cor knew his words were icy, and didnât care. Cor was a patient man, but he couldnât continue to chase after a man who only wanted to fight and push people away.Â
As he turned to leave, he caught out of the corner of his eye Seifer reaching out, unsure if the man would punch him, or try to stop him from leaving. Cor continued to walk away, only freezing the moment he felt the manâs fingers brush against his shoulder, almost as if he was trying to get the Marshal to stop, and then changed his mind mid-grab. Slowly, Cor turned back to look at the blond haired man, searching his emerald eyes.Â
âYou donât have to keep pushing me away....â his voice was quiet. He could see the conflict dancing in Seiferâs eyes as he battled with himself in his head. Cor knew that asking for anyone to stay with him, to comfort him, even when he needed it, was hard.Â
âYou...â Seifer started, before snorting and shaking his head. âFuck this, forget it.â he waved the Marshal off, and turned to walk away. âYou wouldnât understand.â
Cor paused for a brief moment, before reaching out and grabbing Seiferâs arm hard, holding him in place. âIf youâd give me five fucking minutes, Almasy, youâd know how much I actually understand.â his words had a bite to them, but not of anger. It was hurt and frustration. He knew what it felt like to finally be broken and not know what to do with that pain.Â
Fully expecting the man to fight him off, Seifer surprised him by stopping, and Cor felt the man relax under his touch. Releasing his grip, Cor slid his hand to the manâs shoulder.
âLet me in, Seifer. Let me help.âÂ