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stupid things that I did
without Stanley bc I am tired
stupid close-up
@void-dude and sry for trauma dumpung
I am gonna be hospitalized at the mental hospital and I'm sad that I'm probably not gonna be able to draw stantad. they are literally my therapy and I don't know what I'll do but but sorry
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feeling existential crisis ,burnout and all-time exhaustion kicking in harder than I expected
posting it after sh
sorry. im losing motivation and mind
just stupid rambles, vent
i just realized that I envy most of my mutuals, like Sopa, Sid, Fonosai...don't get me wrong. I love them a lot, I love their artworks and creativity, they absolutely deserve all the love they receive...but I can't help but want this recognition. I know that they made hard work to receive that, I know thinking that way is egotistical, i know that I maybe don't even deserve what I have now, but I just want to be noticed. I don't want to be forgotten in the depths of the internet. I'm just a stupid child with issues, and who wants nothing more but to be noticed. I need to work harder but I just can't. I'm already on the verge of.. I don't even know. I don't know what to do anymore. I just don't. I don't.
upd: and especially i want to be noticed by my mutuals. I really need their... I don't know. attention? but I always got really happy when one of my mutuals likes my post or reblogs it, I can't help but feel...appreciated?
self hate
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hi
I was in a mental hospital a month ago, it didn't get better as I hoped. it's not getting worse either, and it hurts like hell. I'm still hurting myself, I'm still doing stupid things. I appear happy but inside I just want to do nothing and die in sleep. I feel empty and dry, every time I want to cry I just can't. I can't and that's it.
I still draw, I can be happy, but I still I just don't allow myself to be fully happy and enjoy the best years of my life. I feel like rotting
I am not ok
