#hurtsinside

You don't know her

You don't know you think you do but you don't even know the half of it.  You don't know the first time she smiled was when daddy held her in his arms on the day she was born.  You don't know that when she fell and hurt her knee that mommy's kiss made it all better.  You don't know when she got that doll on her birthday it was then she wanted a loving family when she grows up.  You don't know when that boy kissed her she felt love but he only wanted one thing.  You don't know that when she sneaked out from hher parents to go to that party she only wanted to fit in so people would like her.  You don't know that she never wanted to let her daddy down from failing the algebra test.  You don't know that she didn't want to get pregant she only wanted him to love her.  You don't know that she was gonna make the dean's list in college. You don't know that brusies on her face healed but the brusies on her heart never did.  You don't know she saw you mistreat her child that she loves unconditionally.  You don't know that she prayed everyday that you would change.  You don't know that when she finaly left to get out alive that she had no where to go.  You don't know that when she went to a dark place it's because she still felt the hurt you caused.  

She doesn't know she deserves better than this.  She doesn't know that her baby saw her cry cause she can't get a job that will take care of them.  She doesn't know that Jesus is weeping right beside her.  She doesn't know that there is love that has no end.  She doesn't know that she met the man that will keep her from harm.  She doesn't know that he will never leave her and her child.  She doesn't know that he's going to be the man he needs her to be.  She doesn't know he will never give up.  She doesn't know that prays God will heal her.  She doesn't know he will sacrifice himself for her and her child no matter what.  She doesn't know that she can fully trust him.

He doesn't know that how she really feels about him.  He doesn't know she will never fully trust him.  He doesn't know that she had to many promises broken to believe in any of his.  He doesn't know that she doesn't believe in what he believes.  He doesn't know that there is a part of her that hates him.  He doesn't know why she loves him. He doesn't know how to stop loving her.