Trauma.
Would you blame a person if he/she has trust issues, if that person is very insecure or protective. I don't know, it seems that sometimes you expect people to understand but they don't. In the first place you shouldn't expect them to understand coz they don't even know why you act like that. Certain situations bring certain feelings and fears, those things that traumatized you in the first place. You can't help but be paranoid with these things, its too much to handle, the tears, the fear and most especially the pain you felt when it happened. You try your best to keep yourself composed and be calm but at the back of your mind the fear grows. To avoid it from happening again, you always dodge the situation, staying away from being the most paranoid person in the world. You gotta be the bravest version of yourself to be able to trust again, smile again and even love again. But even the most courageous fall, you'll seem strong but deep inside you're falling apart. Its slowly destroying the person you so hardly built up. Trauma. How can you be undone? I fully trusted and loved. Please don't try to break me? I can't bear to be in pieces all over again. I'm just afraid that if I shatter, I might not be able to put everything back to the way it was and nothing will be left of me.
