#hurtallover

I don't know what's wrong with me. I've barely been eating lately and I feel so faint but when I eat I feel like I'm going to be sick. I know it sounds horrible and I hate myself for even thinking this but I just want to get really sick so I can go to hospital and just sleep and get medicine pumped into me and not have to feel all the bullshit of the world and I want everyone to be worried and people will care about me and I will just stay in hospital for a month and I will become friends with all the small children and old people dealing with cancer and when I get better I will go back and visit them but if I don't get better then I will be content with passing because I will have discovered who really cares about me. Oh God, what the hell is wrong with me?