hey lou just wondering did dean love hanna
ever since dean met lily for the first time, i.e. the daughter she had kept hidden from him, dean's feelings toward hanna were rooted in bitterness, anger, hatred ; the latter reserved for certain moments where his absence from lily's life was a heartbreaking reminder and an impactful consequence to the trajectory of their daughter's life. and with hanna being dead and gone, those feelings had remained unresolved for the longest time...
however, with the djinn dream experience, dean uncovered a deeply buried love for her, for all the work she'd put into raising lily into this young, amazing woman, for all the sacrifices she had deemed necessary to shield and protect their daughter from danger — even excluding him from her life as a precaution.
dean didn't love hanna on the surface, because he never actually reconnected with her again after lily. what dean carries is the capacity to love her— the readiness, the yearning, the deep and quiet knowledge that, had he been given the chance to reintroduce himself, to get to know her all over again, he could have loved her with all he had ...
but with her death, all he has now is a hollow ache— a promise that can never be kept, a future that was stolen before it could ever begin. he is left with nothing but the echo of a love that never had the chance to exist in real life.











