GOLDEN GAY BRIDGE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD GOLDEN GAY BRIDGE!!!!!!!!! pls. :)
@outquisitor: oh i am SO curious about golden gay bridge ๐
I fear I may be letting you both down ๐
that's what i've retroactively working-titled my creative writing honors thesis from college lmao. it began as a nano project that i then reworked into a presentable "piece" by thesis presentation time.
(grief cw) the original nano novel (called รฉire advocens at the time) was about a young woman who lost her mother going on a journey to track down her biological father. as nanos do, it morphed into a sapphic road trip romance along the way, then in my revisions for thesis purposes, it evolved further into an experimental prose/poetry thing. and THEN my uncle suddenly died that year and in retrospect, that had a heavy hand in my reshaping of the project, not just in content (which was accidental, but it had already been about grief) but also in my apathy toward it (obv i had other stuff to care abt than a stupid school project).
I got the honors thesis, great, whatever, i'm in a post-graduation "what do i do with life" depression fog, my hard drive completely crashes losing whatever since last backup, i don't care i'm depressed. UNTIL i'm less depressed and think to revisit the project and can't find any trace of what i actually submitted as final form of my thesis project. at best i have the nanowrimo word vomit version and the revised for others' eyes (aka shorter) version.
and while i'm not enamored by the idea or very invested in its completion or rebirth or what have you, it does truly feel like The Piece That Got Away and i feel like i. owe it to the story or to myself to make something tangible out of the idea.
also fun fact: (for context, the 'final' version primarily focused on the main character finding a hookup in a gay club in San Francisco to cope with her mother's passing) the only feedback from my thesis hearing/presentation thing that i remember they wanted to see the main character grapple with her sexuality more. that the gay bits were like. too 'happy' and 'straightforward.' it made me so angry that i carry that anger today kljhgf
tl;dr: It was my college honors thesis that has been partially lost. I feel like I owe it to the project and myself to make something of it. I call it Golden Gay Bridge because in every rewrite i try, i get stuck in the minutiae of the two girls meeting at a gay bar in san francisco. oh god and i've just remembered it was supposed to have some water magic/magical realism style stuff in it lkjhjgf
Sorry no excerpt for this one, bc i don't even know what i want it to *be* ๐ญ
