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âIf it makes you feel any better, I could do a ritual for her?â MJâs words struck a chord with Peter. He knows sheâs always reserved about her Paganism, aware that itâs not a conventional religion. So, this came as quite the surprise.
âI-â Peter is at a loss for words as he sinks down into the sofa, eyes locked on the dried, bloody patch in the cushions. This means a lot to MJ, which, in turn, means a lot to Peter. Her connection with her beliefs is strong and deep. She doesnât say something like this to just anyone. âYeahâŠâ he sighs, absentmindedly tracing the stain with his index finger. âIâd appreciate that.â
Peter hates how formal his reply sounds but MJ smiles encouragingly anyways. She sits down on the floor in front of him and grabs his hand away from the patch of blood and the sour memory attached to it, to make him look down at her. Her hair is up in a messy bun, the flyaways frame her face playfully and she grins up at him. MJâs been helping him clean the apartment the last few weeks with zero complaints whatsoever. All she said was:
âOne day, Iâll need your help and then youâll be there for me too.â Itâs true. Heâd do anything for her, as he would for Ned. And May . About two months prior, May had suffered a hypo so severe she had to be taken to the hospital. She recovered enough that she could spend the rest of her time at home, but the damage had already been done. Not just physically. Peter had to sell pretty much everything worth anything that he owned in order to cover even a quarter of the bills. Both his and Mayâs savings had gone into the treatment and now they had next to nothing left, which posed another issue: the insulin.
They wouldnât be able to afford her medication for a while, which meant May was at a constant risk. She wasnât strong enough to go back to work, but the fact that the meds werenât there to help her with her recovery meant that it wasnât going fast. On the contrary. She was deteriorating. But she also decided to keep that from Peter for as long as she could. She didnât want him to worry about her, nor did she want him to take any other measures in order to get her her meds.
Peter noticed, though. May always hated wearing her prescription glasses. But a little over four weeks ago, while Peter was studying at the dinner table, she asked him to fetch them for her. And even as the glasses were on her head, she still squinted- still brought the book further and closer, further and further. Her eyes were getting worse, but she blamed it on her age. Peter knew better. May knew Peter knew better.
With the lack of money, good food was out of the picture too. Everything May would need to recover and live a healthy life was figurative miles away- out of reach. It was difficult to determine her bodyâs needs without the right equipment and she felt lifeless and tired most of the time.
She started dropping stuff, accidentally. And her walk became stick-like. Her hands and feet were ice-cold, and she had to wear her motherâs old compression socks to keep her circulation under control. It became increasingly more difficult for her to run errands, though she tried. There was no way she was going to give up. And there was no way she was going to let Peter in on it, regardless of whether or not he noticed. Heâd experienced enough loss, she wasnât going to burden him with any more anxiety. However, the fact that she didnât talk to him about it, even when he asked or confronted her, only increased his fears. His nights were sleepless. Restless. His mind ran with doom scenarios. What if. What if. What if.
A few days before MJ first helped him with the cleaning, Peter found May on the sofa again, casually reading a book when he noticed her leggings around her ankles were a deep red colour. Not the khaki shade heâd seen when he left for uni that day.
âMay, whatâs that?â Heâd asked. When she lifted the book - which she was now reading with a magnifying glass - to follow Peterâs glare, she exclaimed a surprised:
âOh!â
May aimed to get up from the sofa, but ultimately lost her balance and dropped back into it again. The sofa cushion was stained, just like her feet were. Peter immediately ran over to her and helped her compose herself but she broke down. Tears streamed down her face and the only words that she could utter were unneeded apologies and heavy-weighing regrets. She sobbed against Peterâs shoulder and it took him every inch of willpower not to lose himself to his sadness as well.
Apparently, May went downstairs to grab the mail and on the back way up, she tripped, hitting the lower part of her ankles on the steps. She thought it was okay- that she was fine, but she couldnât feel the wounds underneath her clothes. She hadnât noticed the blood seeping out from them, not even when she sat down on the sofa and blurred her sight even further with the book.
When she was calm again, after taking in all of Peterâs encouraging, hopeful words, he told her to stay seated so he could patch her up. He carefully took off one of the compression socks and tossed it onto the coffee table. Itâd be easier to get the stain off of there than the light rug he was now sitting on. Her foot was freezing and he swallowed when he saw the damage on her ankle. He grabbed the first aid kit and cleaned her up. After her first leg was all ready, he moved on to her other. Gently, he pulled at the hem of the other compression sock, but before he could toss it onto the table, he spotted her pinky toe. It was darkening. Dying.
Thatâs when Peter broke.
âI know you need a miracle right now to help with all of this and- well, I donât really know anyone whoâs good at that kinda stuff, but... â MJ scoffs an awkward laugh before continuing. âI mean, the help of a Fae would be nice, but itâs not that those just show up if you ask them to.â
âA Fae?â Peter chuckles, though his eyes donât spark. âLike Puck? From the play we had to do at Summer camp?â
âSort of, yeah!â MJ grabs Peterâs other hand and places both of them on his knees, resting her own on top. âBut Iâm playing with you, Pete. Itâd be a stretch to find one willing to help.â Peter smiles, but he makes a mental note nonetheless. Not that he thinks Fae are real; thatâd be kind of insane. âAnyways, what I wanted to say is that⊠Well, whatever happens, Iâm here for you, âkay? And for May, too.â
âThanks, MJ.â Peterâs expression softens as MJ stands up.
âNow, letâs finish up so I can go home and perform that ritual.â She winks and helps Peter to his feet. Heâs not sure how to express his gratitude any further. Should he ask to be there? Or is it private? Itâs not like he knows much about Paganism anyways. Heâs interested, though.
Peter is desperate, sure, but he never imagined he would be this desperate. As soon as MJ is out the door, he grabs his notebook to scribble down everything he thinks he knows about Fae. Fairies- whatever. He even re-reads Shakespeareâs Midsummer Nightâs Dream , the play he had a part in last Summer. Puckâs lines- his lines- were still marked.
âItâd be a stretch to find one willing to help,â MJ said. Lucky for Peter, he is quite flexible.
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Peter knows itâs ridiculous. Fae canât be real. Itâs folklore. A story. Yet⊠Peter still finds himself seated behind the library computer that still runs on Windows XP, somehow. Every day, he tells himself he should stop looking up information on Fae. That he should study. Regardless of his attempts to set himself straight, his fingers still type the wrong things into the search bar.
To say his obsession is bordering unhealthy is an understatement, to be honest. He just wants May to live a full and happy life. He wants May to live. And at this point heâs willing to try anything. He canât lose her too; sheâs all he has left.
Itâs nearly Halloween, or Samhain in the Pagan religion. On this day, the border between the world of humans and Fae should be relatively thin, which means the odds would be in his favor if he were to look for a Fae then. Samhainâs in two days, so thereâs no time to lose. Every trick, every single thing that could harm Peterâs safety has to be ingrained in his brain. Yes, he would do anything to save May, but itâd be nice if he got to spend some time with her after.
The most important things Peter noted for himself are âdonât accept anything from a Fae, especially not food,â âdonât listen to their music and definitely donât dance with them,â and the one that Peter knew he would most likely slip on: âdonât give them your name. Under any circumstance.â Peter quickly decided that if any Fae asked for his name, he would just say his name is Ned, for a lack of creativity.
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Samhainâs Eve, or Halloween. Peter squeezes his way into the train. Heâs very grateful that the New York council had decided that students get to travel the subways for free. Otherwise, heâd have no idea how he wouldâve gotten out of the city and into the suburbs. Towards the woods. May is with a friend tonight to give Peter some breathing space, but the opposite is true. The anticipation has knocked the air out of Peterâs lungs.
Peter manages to sit down next to a few kids, dressed up for trick or treating. He offers them a nervous smile, clutching his backpack against his chest. The journey out of New York seems to flash by as much as it takes an eternity. After about two hours of travel, Peter steps out of the last possible station and breathes in the cold October air.
With an old fashioned map of the area and a thrifted flashlight, Peter finds his way into the woods. He knows he has to get off the paths at some point, but the mere idea frightens him to the core. Heâs suddenly not so sure anymore if this was a good idea in the first place. Maybe⊠Maybe he should turn around? Settle on the couch and watch some bad horror movies? Thatâd surely be a lot safer than whatever heâs doing right now.
Peterâs feet donât stop, though. He keeps going forward, his mind telling him to go back, but his heart cannot refrain from reaching out for May. For answers. For hope, no matter how little he may have left. He can feel his blood pump through his body, experiencing how it grows heavy with every step he takes.
The distinct ache of loneliness in his chest grows tighter and tighter. Itâs cold, itâs dark, heâs alone. Utterly and indescribably alone. His eyes are fixated on the path in front of him. So much so, that he doesnât realize he loses track of his map. Worst of all, he only gets back to his senses when the flashlight starts flickering dangerously.
âNo,â Peter whispers, shaking the tool. âNo-no-no-no-â
âNeed a hand?â
Peter yelps and turns, stumbling backwards until he trips over himself and collides with the harsh ground. He looks up at the man, now towering over him, hand outstretched. The flashlight is on again, lying next to Peter and illuminating the fallen leaves, creating a pattern against the trees just off the path. The stranger has a kind smile. He seems to be in his forties, hair still dark and crowâs feet enunciating his smile. Peter sighs exasperated, reaching forward to take the manâs hand until⊠No, wait, who is this man? Peter turns his head to grab the flashlight and when he shifts back to the man, it flickers again.
Peter loses his breath when the manâs irises seem to light up in the short dark moments. The manâs smile doesnât falter, even when Peterâs expression drops. On the contrary, the smile turns into a smirk and all thatâs left for Peter to look at when the flashlight finally dies is a pair of intense, golden glowing eyes.
âWhatâs a young sprite like you doing in these woods? At this hour?â The manâs illuminated eyes lower and lower until heâs at eye level with Peter, whoâs still staring at him.
âI-I... â Peter takes a deep breath. âIâm looking for someone.â The man leans in closer, near-hovering over Peterâs body. Peter tries to move back, but the man follows.
âAre they lost? Like you?â His voice is strangely beautiful. Deep. Close.
âNo, no- Itâs... â
âDo you have their name? If you give it to me, I can find them for you.â Peterâs nearly laying down now, the manâs hands caging him at his sides, but not touching him. In a flash of half confidence, Peter replies:
âAre you a Fae?â
A dark chuckle rumbles below the golden eyes that now squint with glee.
âI am many things.â
âIâm too, that doesnât answer the question, though.â Shit. Shit-shit-shit, why did Peterâs sassy side decide to show up when heâs in the clutches of someone who is definitely not human and could probably kill him without thinking about it twice. Instead of getting angry, the man laughs yet again.
âFair enough, boy.â The eyes pull back and Peter quickly scrambles until he stands, so that he can look down at the man this time. âI am what you say I am.â The man pauses as he stands up too. Thereâs a short shuffle and suddenly, a small fire appears in the manâs palms. The way it lights up his face is an odd combination between warm and creepy. âDoes that frighten you?â
âN-no.â
âYour stutter betrays your lies.â
Peter wants to protest, but the man suddenly raises his hand, eyeing Peter curiously.
âWere you looking for me?â The manâs words send a chill through Peterâs entire body. He presses his lips on top of each other and fiddles with his fingers.
âMaybe.â
âSo, yes.â
âYes.â The man smiles again.
âAnd why were you looking for me?â
âIâm not looking for you specifically.â
âOuch,â the man chuckles. âYouâre looking to use my power.â Peterâs jaw tightens. It almost feels like an accusation. Like itâs hurtful to the Fae that Peterâs only there for that. Peter swallows. Now that he puts it like that, it does sound a little mean. âWhy?â
âItâs⊠Itâs a long story,â Peter says as he looks down at his feet. The light of the fire in the Faeâs hands creates a bubble of light around them. Theyâre still surrounded by utter darkness, save for a few faint silhouettes of the trees around them.
âI have all night.â The man nods, but stops halfway down, seemingly mulling something over. âWhat did you say your name is, again?â
âP-â Peter barely catches himself. Simply saying the first letter of his name already makes him feel a strange, otherworldly tug at his heart. He canât say Ned now. He already started the word. What name could he possibly give to the Fae? Peter composes himself quickly as the gears in his mind turn fast. Fae. âPuck.â
âHa!â The man laughs bombustuously. âFitting for a sweet and pretty young man as you. Though, you are not a Fae.â The man wiggles his eyebrows. âOr are you?â Peter opts to ignore the flirtatious compliment.
âAm not. You and I both know I shouldnât give you my real name.â Peter takes a deep breath, relatively pleased with himself for talking back. âYou may call me Puck.â
âPuck.â The Fae breathes in the name as he closes his glowing eyes. âIâll call you Puck.â
âAnd what should I call you?â Peter asks carefully. A playful smirk creeps up on the Faeâs face.
âI go by many names in these woods. Some call me Inventor. Others call me Iron Man. You may call me Tinker.â Peter canât help himself and bursts out laughing.
âTinker?â he repeats. âAs in Tinkerbell?â The Fae sighs exasperated. It seems like heâs heard that before.
âNo.â He rolls his golden eyes. âI make things. I tinker. But I suppose you deem the nickname unworthy?â The flame in his hands grows bigger for a split second.
âIf youâve got anything else, Iâll gladly call you that,â Peter chuckles. âInventor⊠Iron Man. Wait, isnât iron a Faeâs weakness?â The man laughs softly.
âItâs why they call me it. I am one of the few who feels no effect from iron, or technology, for that matter.â The man nods at Peterâs pants. âSo, the screwdriver in your pocket is quite a lousy weapon against me.â The playful smirk returns on his face. âOr are you just happy to see me?â
âI- I-â
Peter takes a step back, wide-eyed, and looks at the tool in his pocket. The man knew he had it on him. Peter shivers.
âI like you, Puck,â the man says suddenly. He takes a step closer to Peter, who is stuck in place. The warmth of the fire in the manâs hand now reaches Peterâs skin. Itâs⊠Nice. Comforting, somehow. âThere is something about you that I canât quite put my finger on.â
âIâm nothing special, sir,â Peter says politely, breaking eye contact and looking down again. âIâm just here to help my aunt.â
âYour⊠Aunt?â
Peter tells him the entire story. About Mayâs diabetes, without mentioning her name, and the inevitability of amputations and likely death if things keep going the way they are. The Fae listens thoughtfully, not breaking eye contact with Peter the entire time. The man doesnât flinch, not even when Peterâs voice starts breaking and tears threaten to spill from his eyes.
âI shouldnât be this vulnerable with you,â Peter suddenly interrupts himself, attempting to swallow away the lump in his throat. The Fae finally changes expression. A kind smile spreads on his face and he nods.
âA wise assumption.â The man cocks his head and rolls his shoulders, still looking down at Peter. âThough, I am not interested in tricking you right now. I prefer my catch on guard. I like a challenge.â
âGood to know,â Peter sighs, tightening his jaw again in an attempt to stop his emotions getting the better of him.
âCompany.â The Faeâs voice is soft, nearly melancholic.
âWhat?â Peter takes a small step back and frowns, quickly wiping away his tears with the sleeve of his shirt. The soft breeze glides between the trees and tickles his face. It makes the flame in the Faeâs hand dance. Peter blinks once. Twice.
âIâd much appreciate it if, in return for helping your aunt, you keep me company.â If Peter knew any better heâd say there was a hint of desperation seeping from Faeâs words. Is he lonely? The spark of hope grows brighter in Peterâs chest. May might just survive, if the Fae doesnât screw him over. Peter takes a second to ponder his words.
âHow long?â
âBargain for it, boy.â
Peter sucks at his teeth and takes a deep breath. He has no idea what kind of price he has to pay. Whatâs normal. Though, about a week ago he didnât even think Fae existed, so everything was a wild guess at this point.
âI- I donât know⊠What would you ask of me?â Peter fumbles, wrapping one hand around the index finger of the other and pulling at it absentmindedly. Itâs a nervous tick he couldnât seem to shake and it betrays his uncertainty.
Suddenly, the Fae pushes into his space, making Peter stumble backwards again. He barely keeps himself from tripping over and the Fae cocks his head playfully.
âYou and I both know Iâd rather have your name, but you wonât give that to me, would you?â His tone darkens and he orders. âBargain.â
âTwo days. Consecutive. So, 48 hours?â Peter tries. A bargain means the Fae will start with a higher price. If theyâre going to work to a middle ground, 48 hours might be a good starting point.
âTwo days?â The Fae sighs dramatically and raises the back of his hand to his forehead. âYou wound me.â The Fae stands up straight again, putting the same hand on his hip and puffing his chest. The flame in his hand grows brighter and brighter. âEight. Consecutive.â
âMh, three.â
âSixâŠâ The Faeâs tone is threatening somehow, but Peter wonât give in that easily.
âFour, separate meetings, not consecutive.â
The Faeâs laughter shakes the trees and thereâs a mischievous glint in his eye before he continues.
âIs that all you think your auntâs precious life is worth, Puck?â Peter jolts and immediately shakes his head.
âY-You told me to bargain!â
âHmm⊠So I did.â The Fae steps closer to Peter, refraining from touching him, but Peter can feel his hot breath on his skin. The Fae smells of pine and Peter has to set his mind straight to look away from him. He didnât realize heâd been staring straight into the Faeâs golden eyes. âI really do like you.â Peter shudders. The Fae then pulls back again and nods approvingly. âFour days it is. How about we meet every upcoming celebration up until Beltane?â
Peter doesnât know how to reply, so instead, he keeps quiet. His silence isnât taken kindly, though. The Fae clears his throat and looks at Peter from behind his long lashes. He smirks.
âHave we come to an agreement?â Peter isnât sure whether or not he should say yes straight away. Thereâs something thatâs still missing from this contract and the last thing Peter wants is to be tricked.
âYour medicine has to work completely, otherwise the deal is off,â he states resolute. The Fae chuckles.
âClever boy,â the Fae sighs as he circles Peter. Goosebumps spread over the young manâs entire body. âI cannot cure an illness like hers, but I can ensure she does not suffer. I will help your aunt live a long, full and healthy life, regardless of the ailment she carries with her.â The Fae sniffs once and cocks an eyebrow at Peterâs reply.
âWhatever means necessary?â
âWhatever means necessary.â
âDeal.â The Fae grins and tilts his head slightly.
âGood boy.â Peter shivers and takes in a deep breath. That voice . Those words . They shouldnât do as much to Peter as they actually do. He should be scared. Yet, this whole thing is kind of⊠Exciting, in a way⊠Invigorating.
âDo you think you can find your way back?â The man asks, snapping Peter out of his thoughts. He looks around and into the darkness, which causes his heart to sink.
âIâm not sure.â
âYou can say no, Puck. Itâs alright,â the Fae jokes. âIf you are comfortable with following me, I can lead you back to the nearby town.â Peter eyes the Fae cautiously. âA human town.â
âWith a train connection into New York?â
âIf I knew, Iâd tell you. But a town is better than infinite darkness, isnât it?â The man grins cheekily and gestures around. Peter looks into the dark, realizing that if he doesnât agree, the Fae will leave him here alone. Without light.
âPlease, take me there?â His voice is smaller than he hoped it was.
âOnly because you asked so nicely.â
Peter isnât sure how long theyâre walking. The man doesnât say much, but Peter canât help but notice he tries to keep the flame close to Peter to keep him warm. Heâs kinder than he thought Fae would be, but there is a small weight of dread in Peterâs stomach. What if the Fae did trick him? What if heâs being led somewhere else? His worries fade when he spots a brick house in the distance. He releases the breath heâd been holding and turns to look at the Fae.
âThank you.â
âOf course,â the Fae replies. He seems lost in thought.
âAre you okay?â Peter asks quietly. The man seems surprised by his question.
âYes, eh⊠Itâs just been a while since Iâve⊠Well... â The man frowns and looks away. âNevermind.â He leans back on his heels and uses the hand that still carries the flame to point at the path ahead. âIf you take a right after the first house, the road youâll be on should lead you into town.â
Peter stares at the man and the sad expression that is still on his face. It confirms Peterâs earlier thoughts. The man is lonely. Peter bites the inside of his cheek. The Fae obviously doesnât want to talk about whatever is bothering him, and since Peter doesnât want to push him over any edge, he decides to leave it. For now.
âThanks.â He starts walking away from the Fae, but halts after a few steps. âIs there something small you want in return?â Peter replies. The man blinks a few times, confused. âYou did help me.â Peter shrugs.
âI... â The man stops his sentence, purses his lips and frowns.
âAhh,â Peter smirks. âThere is something you want.â
âYouâre a cheeky little thing, arenât you?â The manâs eyes giddily light up for a split second.
âOnly with people Iâm comfortable around.â Peter replies without thinking. A soft âohâ falls from the Faeâs lips. Peter tries to lighten the mood. âBargain for it,â he says. The Fae looks at him dumbfounded, but collects himself. Itâs odd to see him suddenly turn shy.
âIs a hug too much to ask for?â
âA hug?â Peter repeats surprised. The Fae looks away rejected, so Peter continues quickly. âA hug should suffice.â Peter smiles as he steps towards the Fae. He opens his arms, but pauses. âDo⊠Do you want me to give you a hug, or do you want to⊠Take one from me?â Peter doesnât know why he asked it. Obviously, he should be giving the hug in return for the directions. But something about how the man stood there, tells him differently.
âMay⊠May I?â Peter nods encouragingly and before he can even blink, he feels the Faeâs arms wrapped around his body. It feels strangely⊠Cold? One of his hands finds its way into Peterâs curls. The other presses Peter against him tightly. Peter is completely enveloped in the manâs presence. Itâs comforting, somehow, to feel the Faeâs warm breath on his ear. The flame the Fae held has disappeared, but his hands are still tingling with heat, even though the rest of his body seems so cold.
âThank you,â the man whispers quietly. Peter has no idea how long he had been held in the Faeâs embrace, but he had to admit, he kind of didnât really want to leave. He hasnât had a hug like this since Ben died. He should let go, obviously. Thereâs still a small voice in the back of his head, telling him that this is a trick to make him stay. To make him say or do things that would result in him never being able to go home. But Peter can practically feel the manâs sorrow aching against his chest.
âOf course,â Peter replies, once again mimicking the manâs words.
The Fae finally pulls back, but he doesnât yet let go of Peter. He seems to be looking for something in Peterâs eyes, but he canât find what he searches for. Eventually, he clears his throat and lets go.
âIâll see you when Yule graces us.â
âWhenâs that?â Peter asks innocently. The man smiles and cocks his head.
âAround your Christmas.â
âAh,â Peter says with a nod. âWell, see Yule then.â Peter wiggles his eyebrows and finger guns. Heâs about to hit himself in the head to condemn his stupidity, but what he doesnât expect, isthe man bursting out laughing. The sound fills Peterâs heart with warmth. The Faeâs laughter eventually dies down and then he nods at the path ahead.
âI will visit your aunt soon, before this week ends. Thank you, Puck.â
Peter grins and turns towards the town, continuing his journey home. After about ten feet, he stops again, though. There was a question nagging at his mind that he hadnât yet gotten the answer to.
âWhat do I call you?â The Fae looks down at the ground between them and starts walking backwards.
âOberon,â he says softly. He smiles one last time before retreating into the dense woods. âYou may call me Oberon.â