@hrodohaide — “ do we realize when we’re in the glue? when the water around us is boiling? or do we sit there, saying, ‘this will be ok?’ ” ( to caleb )
𝙞𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙣𝙤 𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙨 𝙞𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙨, 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙮 𝙙𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙞𝙧 𝙚𝙙𝙪𝙘𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙖𝙘𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙢𝙮. bren asks so many questions at the start, so eager to learn any and everything that is offered to him. he feels like a dry patch of soil in gentle, yet seemingly never-ending, summer rains, when he is a fresh, new student.
questions are not so welcome anymore.
he sits, and he listens to master ikithon’s questions and lectures and commands. he reads his books, and he practices with astrid and eodwulf. he learns, and he . . . grows. changes. hardens. shifts. does what he’s told. does what he has to do. does what is necessary. does what . . . he doesn’t always understand.
he does so now. he sits, and he listens, but the words fall on soil that isn’t ready — untilled, unbroken (broken into crags, not rows of healthy, tenable dirt), unprepared. maybe he will remember this one day.
“ 𝗮𝗱𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁, ” he finally answers. “ 𝗮𝗱𝗮𝗽𝘁. 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘀𝗲𝘀𝘀. 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝗻 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗮 𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗽, 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗲𝘀𝘀. ”