(I suck at pronouns, okay, so I'm going to try and use them correctly but I may miss some.) Okay, so, first of all, this started MONTHS ago. I met Han IRL at a dungeons and dragons session. He seemed nice so we swapped urls. Everything is fine for two weeks, we got along and I thought I had made a nice new friend who was like me. Well, I was dead wrong. I reblogged one post, something to do with that meme of the lady yelling at someone for copying her husband or whatever, relating to bpd. I figured, hell yeah, relatable and spreading an actual symptom of a mental illness. Han immediately sent me a message asking if I had bpd, and I really don't want to talk about what I have, so I told hym that I have anxiety, depression, and ADHD, which I do. He immediately responded in a hostile manner, demanding that I take down the post and "never fucking talk to hym again". I asked hym why. I didn't understand why someone I was starting to trust would treat me like dirt. All I got for a reply was cussing and name calling. I wish I had screenshots but I couldn't handle having that kind of negativity on my phone. (I do tumblr exclusively on mobile) That went on for weeks. Name calling and hys friends harassing me constantly and picking apart everything I said. I was so panicked, that was when I started mutilating the soles of my feet and thinking about cutting my throat. Han and the system threatened to hurt me, kill me, strangle me, and that they would show up at the next dungeons and dragons meeting and kill me. Let me explain why I was terrified. I have an extreme phobia of this kind of thing. The idea that someone wants to hurt me or find me makes me absolutely terrified. And I may be a blackbelt, but the only thing it's good for is looking cool while a do a series of moves by myself in my room. Sparring was my worst skill. And I know that, and therefore I am utterly fucking terrified by death threats. Yeah, he said it was "the voices". That doesn't make me less scared or believe that he wouldn't do it. Him being disabled doesn't stop me from feeling terrified. I've heard voices. They have a way of making you want to listen. I'll admit that I did say a few things that were kind of crap of me. And I apologized for them. I did say that I wished he would try to hurt himself and be unsuccessful so that he would be put in a mental hospital. I just wanted the tormenting harassment to stop, and I was so anxious and paranoid at the time I nearly failed my favorite class because I couldn't focus. I just wanted some peace. This has gone on for almost six months now. Since I blog exclusively on mobile, my recommended feed often brings up things I've shown interest in... Which hym and his friends seemed to have a lot of my interests as well, so they've attacked me periodically for liking or reblogging their posts, which, frankly, all of them change blogs so much I don't even know who the fuck they are anymore. Last but not least, he put his friends up to sending me hate, and one even made an entire blog called @cslurcallout AND @katcalloutpart2 that took all of my posts, and picked them apart. There are also several instances in which he himself has stalked my blog and then posted about things on his own, once even reposting a personal post to my friends that had my Skype in it. If you want screenshots, you can go to @abusescreenshots. I posted everything I have there.
