#hp thoughts

first, i’m a narcissist and will not read it if it’s not about me

second, I love the feeling of people liking me

come to privet drive to rescue harry from his abusive home after he hadn’t been replying to any of his letters and he was worried

almost back out of following the spiders bc they’re his biggest fear, but upon seeing hermione’s empty seat at dinner, find the courage to go

defend hermione from any and everyone who called her a mudblood

constantly worry about hermione’s workload (especially in 3rd year) and notice that whenever she disappeared

offer to teach hermione his entire family tree so that she could pretend to be pure blood to keep her safe from death eaters

defend harry to everyone (percy, seamus, half the school) when everyone thought he was lying about voldemort’s return

stand up on his broken leg in front of harry and say that “if you want to kill harry, you’ll have to kill us first!” to what they believed to be a raving lunatic mass murderer

gift dobby his newest weasley jumper and the new socks he got given for christmas

stand up against snape when he was bullying hermione (and got a detention as a result)

beg the deatheaters who were torturing hermione to “leave her alone!! take [him], have [him] instead!”

always check up on his friends when he notices something is up, even if it’s in subtle ways

immediately befriend harry on the train in ps and teach him about the wizarding world

write to charlie immediately so he could help hagrid out of trouble (re the dragon, norbert)

encourage neville to stand up to people, and praise him when he actually does it

help harry put on his pajamas after he broke his arm during quidditch

have to be physically restrained from attacking malfoy after he said he wished hermione had died in cos

worry about harry’s preoccupation with the mirror of erised and how it was affecting him

remind hermione to eat her meals and get a good night’s sleep when she’s studying 24/7 for their owl exams

display acute levels of emotional intelligence in the way he interacts with harry and hermione, essentially being the glue that keeps them all together

get splinched almost in half, lose blood and suffer agonising pain but seem more worried about the cattermoles and whether or not they were okay

realise his mistakes & own up to them, acknowledging his role in certain falling outs (especially in deathly hallows)

be genuinely hilarious and fun, and lighten the load in everyone else’s’ lives with the humour he brings to

write to his mother in ps asking her to give harry presents too because he doesn’t think he’ll received any

go to the department of mysteries to help harry without a second a thought

go on the run with harry to hunt for horcruxes without a second thought

run to hermione’s aid when malfoy hits her with a nasty hex outside snape’s classroom and take her to the hospital wing

help hermione with buckbeak’s appeal, spending hours upon hours reading up on the case

extend the first olive branch after fighting with hermione because of scabber’s “death” and apologising, after which she then apologises too

demand to re-try out for the position of keeper on the quidditch team because he wanted to earn it himself with no favouritism or help

choose to stay on the quidditch team despite the bullying from the slytherin team and his nerves about his flying ability

stand up to malfoy at every opportunity, when he was insulting him, but more importantly, insulting his family & his friends

save harry’s life in dh by pulling him out of the lake, and then kill the horcrux

remember the houseelves during the battle of hogwarts and worry about their safety

continue to admire and adore his older twin brothers despite the fact that they were sometimes cruel to him

become almost annoyingly protective of his little sister (ESPECIALLY after the diary situation)

single-handedly out smart and escape five armed and deadly snatchers

try his best to overcome his insecurities and feelings of being overlooked, in order to support the people around him

sacrifice himself without a second thought during the chess game in ps because he knew harry’s survival was more important than his

We know Harry was abused as a kid—it glaringly obvious in the books—, but my question is what exactly did this abuse do to him in the long run?

I think for Harry it wasn’t as obvious as it could have been, but to me he seems like a wonderful example of an abuse victim in a way. When he gets angry it’s usually cold and calculated, Harry usually not being too loud as not to draw attention but to let his anger be known. He doesn’t like attention, usually avoiding it if he can and getting uncomfortable from it, I think it could be traced back to attention usually having negative consequences.

While he may go to an adult first when a problem arises (McGonagall and the Philosophers Stone) if the adult proves incompetent he will take matters into his own hands and not bother getting their help again. He also doesn’t respect them like he could and treats those who treat him badly the same, Snape a wonderful example of this. To him he is on the same level as them and thinks lowly of them at the same time.

When Ron and Hermione are bickering it annoys him and often causes him to blow if it goes on too long or he’s pulled into it. I think raised voices or arguing are a type of trigger, not one that’s very strong but can makes him feel more on edge and slightly more antsy. I also think him being treated as “less than”—or like a child—is also a slight trigger because that’s how the Dursleys would treat him.

He also usually is very unaware of the people around him that don’t make a difference in his life, failing to know the names of kids he’s gone to school with for years. To me it seems like someone that’s always only relied on themselves is too busy caring for themselves that they don’t have time to care about people that don’t matter. These people also fade to the back because they don’t pose a risk in any way nor do they bring him any joy. At the Dursleys he wouldn’t have had time to care about kids at school because he’s too busy thinking about how to escape Dudley and his gang and not get on his aunt and uncles bad side.

The sorting hat also mentioned how Harry had a thirst to prove himself, something that’s common among abused kids because they want to be treated better. His risk taking behavior could have been mixed with this because a subconscious part of his mind thought it the only way to be liked due to him being a celebrity.

I also noticed how he doesn’t really branch out when it comes to meeting people, simply going with the flow. It could be because as a kid if he went up to Petunia, Vernon or Dudley for attention it never ended well and the kids at his primary school probably shied away because he was a target for bullying. The logical decision is to let people come to him and prove they want to be around, so he let Ron and Hermione come around without really reaching out.

Emotions also make him uncomfortable, seen with Cho crying around him. He doesn’t understand them likely because he was forced to push his away because he wasn’t allowed to ever be upset or too happy. Something that’s common in emotionally neglected children, it also points to his lack of empathy. While Harry may seem to care he does not come across as very empathetic for the average person unless it’s people he’s close with.

Huh! This description of the young spy’s composure, though of course filtered through Trelawney’s perspective, isn’t very far removed from how he is described in his younger teen years (sputtering, protesting, becoming incoherent when emotional — far from socially deft). It’s markedly different from how we see him operating during the course of the HP timeline; intimidating Quirrell in Philosopher’s Stone, talking his way out of a death sentence in Goblet of Fire, and having the time of his life running circles around Bellatrix in Half-Blood Prince. I’m certainly not the first to note that at some point, Snape had to put quite bit of effort into this transformation. I had always envisioned a 90s-movie makeover/training montage during years 6/7 and into his first years of service with the Death Eaters in which he cultivates a more aristocratic and confident facade, learns skills like Occlumency, and develops the social aptitude which seemed to elude him as a younger teen; I always had a hard time imagining Snape trying to establish credibility with the Death Eaters without quite a bit of work on his end to conform.

But this description from Trelawney has made me consider that Snape might have picked up a lot of these skills later than I originally thought — towards the end of the war and into his first years as a professor. Interesting possibility. While I’d always considered his sink-or-swim brand of instruction to be born of his own brilliance and lack of a safety net while he was in school, this could add some more color as to why his instruction (particularly of Occlumency) is so focused on self-preservation; perhaps learning the skill quickly was literally life or death for him once he defected and began working as a double agent for the Order. 

Of course, it could be that he did indeed develop these skills before or shortly upon joining the Death Eaters, but Dumbledore’s presence has a way of making Snape’s hard work evaporate. After all, Dumbledore — and his trust — have the ability to get under Snape’s skin even years later when he’s fully accustomed to his role as a spy...

If I had a Galleon for every time someone told me to “read the books,” I’d own all of Gringotts by now.

Every time I criticize Ginny or Ron, the same comments and asks roll in like clockwork: “You didn’t read the books!” or “You’re just a biased Harmony shipper!” Okay. Sit down. Let’s talk.

1. I did read the books. As a kid. As a teenager. As an adult. In translation. In English. Multiple times. The older I got, the worse Hinny and Romione looked. Red flags everywhere. What once felt “cute” at 12 looks toxic and shallow when you reread it at 25.

2. “Read the books” isn’t an argument. We did read them. That’s why Harmony makes sense. The story itself gives Harry and Hermione all the emotional groundwork. Meanwhile, canon defenders keep throwing “sibling vibe” around like it means something. Sorry, but I laugh every time I see it. Nobody can actually define what “sibling vibe” is or how it’s supposedly worse than Hinny’s “chest monster puberty spark” or Romione’s endless shouting matches. That’s not evidence. That’s just cope.

3. Canon ≠ gospel. Some fans act like disagreeing with Rowling is literal blasphemy. As if the epilogue was handed down on stone tablets. Newsflash: being a grown reader means you can read critically, not just worship canon because it’s canon. If your entire defense is “but it’s written that way”… I have bad news for you. That’s five-year-old logic.

And here’s the kicker: Harry and Hermione didn’t owe their lives to Ron or Ginny’s crushes. Ginny liked Harry? Ron liked Hermione? Cool. That’s their problem. Not Harry’s. Not Hermione’s. And if the Weasleys only “accept” you as long as you marry into their family plan, then guess what? That’s not real acceptance. That’s a conditional friendship contract. Hard pass.

4. Stop blaming the movies. I hate the book versions of Hinny and Romione more than the movie ones. Yeah, you heard me. Canon defenders love to bring up the few nice moments but completely ignore the toxic ones. “Remember when Ron defended Hermione from Snape?” Sure. But do you also remember when he accused her of betraying Harry? Or when he pushed the boycott long after Harry tried to make peace? Or when he sulked through the Horcrux hunt, comparing Hermione to his mother? Funny how that gets memory-holed.

And Ginny? People love to gush about two kisses while ignoring the clingy valentines, the mean-spirited mocking, the “dating one guy while pining for another” phase, and her complete absence when Harry actually suffered. Hermione stood by Harry when the whole world turned against him. Ginny was… somewhere else. But hey, “chest monster” = true love, right?

5. Spoiler: there’s no love here. Ginny’s obsession with Harry was built on him being The Boy Who Lived. Wanting someone because they’re famous ≠ love. And Ron? Insulting, abandoning, and belittling your partner isn’t romance, it’s toxicity with extra steps. One dramatic rescue doesn’t erase years of being awful.

6. Meanwhile, Harmony. Harry literally stares at Hermione in awe. He panics when she’s hurt. He feels her pain. He only breathes easy when she’s safe. She spends her time and energy preparing him for battles he didn’t even know were coming. They even use each other’s wands — which, according to the lore, shouldn’t even work. That’s not filler. That’s text.

marauders valentines ship event by @a-bit-of-everyth1ng

fourth ship is moonwater (remus x regulus)

moodboard vision is messy barista remus who plans chaotic dates like teaching regulus how to bike ride and takes him to dirty bars to dance and orderly lawyer regulus who plans traditional dates like fancy dinners where he shows off his wine knowledge and teaching remus how to play chess. regulus loves taking care of remus and showing him how he is meant to be treated by people who love him. remus loves showing regulus how to have fun and not to take life so seriously.

fic recommendations:

Before The Last Train Home by MollyMaryMarie

Stars by the Pocketful by blueworlds, midnightrainreg

la sylphide (dance with me in the moonlight) by deetoxicity

Playing Your Heart: Viewers <30,000 by party4lu

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mind the tags for the fic recommendations

Thinking about how poly!marauders would be a mix of loving and competitive in bed.

Sirius and James would be fighting over who gets to make their girlfriend cum just to be beaten to it by Remus while they're not paying attention.

Would have full contests on who can make her finish faster.

But at the same time, they whisper sweet nothings and excel at aftercare

James is a cuddler after sex, he would tug them all in so fast none of them even have the chance to get up

Remus, however, seems like the type to get hungry, he would hop up, practically running to the kitchen to make them all food.

And Sirius is 100% a sleeper, he would be passed out within seconds of cumming, lights out, lost to the world for hours.

James: Acts like a Switch -> Is a Switch

Sirius: Acts like a Dom -> Is a Sub

Remus: Acts like a Sub -> Is a Switch

James' favorite thing in bed is getting his hair pulled for sure, maybe scratches down his back.

Sirus' is the sounds, moaning, whimpering, and especially, the breathy voice sighing his name.

Remus' is the comfort of it, feeling so close to someone that they're warming eachother with their body heat, getting to be vulnerable and open without saying a word.