#howdoart

So my best friend got a tattoo recently and i'm so proud of him taking the pain. I know he doesn't take too well to pain, but girl, it was so worth it. It is a grand tattoo with a lot of meaning and I don't think i could have been more happy being able to hold his hand while he got it. (': just as i did to my other dearly beloved best friend Michaela. <3 Ever since he got his tattoo, i've been thinking about my tattoo feelings. Like, what do i want to get and where & when? I can't afford that shit right now-well, i would prefer to be more stable before making any more purchases anyway- so i'll wait for the later times. But it got me thinking if i were to get one too, its going to be permanent & i would love for it to be meaningful. On top of that, I, meeeee, i want to be the one to design & draw my own. I can literally hear the echoing of Andres' words; "Omg, its permanent. When i shower, it'll STILL. BE. THERE." Ohhhh O: scary. And i doubt ya'll know me, but i am very careful of my decisions. So i prepare for my decisions & come to wholehearted agreement when i am ready -w- weep. I am such a wiener neiner. :b I wonder if i can ever produce anything good. How do art? Art how do? I get pretty insecure about it, especially when i have faboobulously amazing artsy gehlfrends that make me want to sing heavenly choir songs -O- but my art is good. Their art is great. i mean, i do what i do & it is good. they do the same. I dont have to be a fucking michaelangelo .___. weep. I must hone my skills. Just as they have. Then maybe i will do good art like them. yus. I just wish i had the motivation and time. o: i miss drawings. I will start. and maybe even start with tattoo art concepts. Cos one day somebody will ask me about it. And i wont have to say something staupid.