#hoorey

Your lips on mine your hand grazing my thigh your fingers stroking my arm your palm on my chest your hair each strand flopped over demarcated individually your eyes a transparent glow looking at me your mouth on my neck your words are you okay

My words were yes.

My mind left wondering, never challenged in that way before, never opened to that possibility that I will dive head on into. Im agreeing wholeheartedly, openly, honestly to the very thing I said I didn't want, to the very thing I thought I could never do. Because you are a beautiful human and you are unique and I am drawn to you and I cannot do otherwise. I won't let myself do otherwise.

My words were yes and will be yes again and now my eyes yearn to drink in your features and get lost in your light crystal orbs I want your lips again your teeth your pull your fingers with mine and our hands clasped and teasing

You are weird queer deliciously intelligent. Can we waffle through parks together sit on benches and talk for hours scout for rooftops to lie on ride your bike down to the beach and kiss in the sand? Can we hold hands and stroll and know that it means nothing because you said it won't be and I said yes?

Well. Same shit, different day. Dropped like a dead fly, dropped like it was hot, dropped like emotions don't matter.

Can I say I'm surprised? No

Can I say I'm disappointed? Truly

Can I say I'm hurt? Perhaps.

Thing is, it's a kind of numbing hurt and so, although real the pain is but see, it's like the 3rd time and honestly its getting hard to feel. And so, it doesn't hurt that much anymore.

We haven't spoken and it's freaking me out

It's making me nervous

I can't wait to see you, it's actually driving me a little crazy. Sorry I'm so mad; but it's just excitement.

I've got a good feeling about you.

You reply Q24 and it's driving me craaaaazy. Is this part of the reason why I'm so intrigued, drawn in, infactuated?

Probably. Most possibly.