#holy ellipses

Something i’ve been thinking about….being aware of everything, specifically how life evolves and the randomness and diversity of lifeforms on earth…everything happened by chance, and everything would be so different only by chance….and the reason why all life exists and looks a certain way and tries new things (mutations) is for reproduction to be the end goal…if it doesn’t work it dies out….it’s so existentially terrifying. Very bleak. We are attracted to things looking a certain way to reproduce, it’s the sole reason why we have some features (like breasts) and why impractical things still exist because reproduction occurs in spite of it (menstruation). For everything to be this way….to be attracted to any lifeform……..doesn’t this knowledge cause it all to cease? Disillusioned by sexual impulses. I’ve never heard anyone say this before……everyone/thing is all products of environment and DNA

To have such a natural connection to one’s biology, I can’t understand it…probably because I’ve always had a natural tendency to somewhat dissociate(?). Like looking in a mirror too long, or hearing my own voice too long, I become too aware of it and I don’t recognize it. I’ve also never felt an attachment with my name. This is also probably because of my natural dysphoric tendencies.

Like look at the sheer diversity of life, like underwater animals…that could be you or me, but it’s not…