#holidayrant

And Calum is staying there to work for a month, which i thought wouldn't make me so emotional because i won't be at home anyway, but still i cried and the whole way home and now theres like a big chunk missing and it is horrible.

And now i am back, and i'm back at placement on wednesday and for whatever reason i feel like crap, not just because Calum is gone. I don't know if it's because i have had too much time to think while on holiday or what, wallowing in my own sadness. And for some reason at the moment i am becoming so affected by other peoples sadness that i do not know what to do with myself, the majority of the time there is absolutely nothing i can do either. But currently theres a few people, super close to me as well as people i barely know and their sadness has affected me so much and i just cannot do anything about it.