I've been watching a fair bit of the American show "Hoarders" over the past few days, starting just by chance. But it turns out I think I needed to see it, because even though I don't buy a lot of things, I haven't let go of most stuff I've ever owned, which is actually insane. And quite honestly I relate to a lot of the anxieties of these people about letting anything go, which is quite concerning because one of my grandfathers was a hoarder. Not to the extent you see on these shows but he was nonetheless, and I don't want to get like that at ALL. Being a sad spinster is probably inevitable, but I don't wanna do that surrounded by shit like the poor bastards on this show. I cling on to stuff because fucking everything makes me sentimental, and being sentimental make me feel less lonely I guess. But those feelings can get in the way of growth just as much as physical items do eventually. I'm already fucking sick of tripping over everything and not being able to access things easily as it is.
So yeah. It's been shockingly motivating so far. I've got several things going up on ebay today and tomorrow, thrown a lot of small bits of crap away and one big thing, got some charity bags on the go, and got rid of one box from the loft. I need this to keep going well, tbh. Change is very much needed in my life.
