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Whether or not you are attracted to the same sex you have a choice to act on it or not, and yes, thoughts do count. 

Please rethink your "realization" and ask forgiveness from God because the Bible is pretty clear on where God stands. 

Like I’ve said before to a lot of people asking questions, humans don’t know what judgement God will hand down after our earthly lives are over. I’m sorry that the other Christians you know are condemning you because of your decision but I do know that the Bible speaks against homosexuality.

Think through your decision and whether you really do love this girl or if it’s really something else. I’m sorry I can’t help any more than this.

My advice would be to find someone you can be accountable to, a trustworthy friend, adult, pastor, etc. Pray with them and get them to help you stay away from the content you are viewing. Restrict how much time you spend around a computer alone (I assume it is online) so that you are tempted less often. Although telling someone is a big and scary step it is usually necessary to beat any kind of addiction. Also pray to God daily that He would help you in breaking this addiction.

Pornography is a very odd and very dangerous thing. If you are questioning your sexuality at all because of this addiction, don't. Pornography is designed to be attractive to our sinful/lustful nature. It makes sense that you can be addicted or "turned on" by lesbian pornography even though you are straight. If you have any more questions please don't hesitate to ask us.

First off I'll say if you are at all engaged in viewing pornography, stop. I know you said nothing about that but if you are at all involved in it, that definitely won't help and you should make moves to stop. Just a point I thought should be covered.

Personally from research and experience I think for the most part homosexuality/bisexuality is a mental thing (eg. psychological problem). Forgive me if you don't think so but it's very often true. And yes it can be extremely hard and seeming impossible to try and change a mental state such as this. So if you really don't want to like girls then keep praying to God, keep trying. Find a Christian mentor and get them to help you. (if you do want to treat it as a mental thing, a psychiatrist even). God doesn't want you to feel this way or feel this hurt. He wants to see you better and feeling normal and good about yourself. And if you really do believe that Jesus is your saviour, and died for you and you try your best and say for example you die before you beat it (I hope this doesn't happen but just for example), well I can't say for sure but I think almost certainly God would let you into heaven. He measures the attitude of the heart above all else. And if your heart's wish is to truly fix this problem then He sees that and respects that and will definitely try to help you out of it.

I have to admit, I didn't really know the definition of transgender, but I've looked it up in a million and one places and now I do. What I've found is that it is a predisposition to not feeling like the gender you were born, in simple terms.

As for the answer, I can't say that I really know. I'm not God, so I can't say what is wrong and right enough to get you into heaven or not. I don't know if it's okay to be transgender. But I can say that Christians are not supposed to hate. So, is this you thinking that they hate you, or is it Christians actually actively hating you?

I'm sorry that we couldn't help more and keep loving God, pray and He can do anything.

(From the guy). As the guy here I totally get the whole masturbation/porn thing. I'm gonna lay something down here that I never have to anybody, simply because no one knows who's behind this blog and I feel it could help you. I've been through the same kinda thing. I feel into porn and masturbation and I hated myself, inside and out. In the end I somehow managed to fight it off without telling anyone, but that's the power God has. One day I just fully broke down in front of God and lay myself before Him. I just didn't want myself anymore, I figured if my life was going to mean anything it would be in His hands.

This definitely doesn't mean I was fixed overnight. I backslid many times in both areas. I felt horrible when I did, but these instances grew far and few between and now I just don't.

As for being attracted to females and males I have some knowledge I picked up from sex-ed in highschool (we had a Christian speaker and it really helped). He talked on porn watched by teens and how it can screw with your sex drive development mentally (yeah it sounds like crap but hear me out). So yeah anyway he talked about it for a while and it pretty much sounds like what you're going through. So I think the first main step is giving that up, which like I said is a process (that God will help with) that may take some time. Definitely don't try anything with another girl to see if you feel anything! Guarantee almost 100% that it will make you more confused than ever rather than solve the problem.

In saying all this, God will definitely not condemn you to hell for an action that you may make depending on how you go with your fight against this. He understands your struggle and that it will be a challenge for you to change. If you are legitimately trying your best that's all He asks of you. 

1 John 1:9"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness."

John 3:16-17"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him."

God does not ask for a perfect life free of sin to make it to heaven, but He does hope that we'll try our best. What He does ask is that you recognise Jesus as your saviour and have a relationship with Him, that's what being a Christian is all about, your relationship with God/Jesus.

So after all that I'll try and sum up the best I can. God isn't looking to try and make sure you get condemned, He wants the exact opposite. He wants to see you get past this problem and move into a more enjoyable life with Him. Try your absolute best to try and break yourself of this habit with His help (reading the bible helps, and some praise/worship music if you can get your hands on it). If you can't do it alone see if you can find someone to confide in, possibly someone going through similar stuff where you can help each other through.

Finally for the thing with your mum which I didn't get to. If you have any friends that happen to go to church ask if they could take you along. You could tell your mum they invited you if you want. Once you've gone once going again won't be as much of a shock. Also when you make it to church there may be a pastor you could confide in that can also help lead you through your problem.

I hope this all helps you with your walk with Christ and your fight against sin and for purity. If you have anything further to ask on this matter please don't hesitate to ask. 

God bless, I will be praying for you :)