#historics

What is good? If you complain and get hurt "react back" to deliver evil upon others, included the ones who have hurt you, what makes it of you? Righteous? I was thinking of that in the morning as I woke up, whether I vent or try to do something as sharing my pain, in my idea sharing is good. Can I believe humanity can be trusted? I am afraid of that that if I don't share my struggle people will never care of me. I am not wrong, unfortunately. They will not. Only through whip people learn. They form morality through suffering. Did people stop killing because it was right thing to do or because it was a necessity and it was abused? You can say all you want, but when there are no consequences every person here in the room will claim it's first.

like I do

you cant feel pain

without having to worry if it’s real

and not knowing which is worse

so it isn’t surprising 

to end up paranoid about at least a few other things

but if you’re paranoid like I’m paranoid

anxious, neurotic, whatever we call it

if you’re like me and you always worry

you doubt near everything 

and when you have to wonder “is this pain real pain?”

if you really doubt everything

one day you’ll question things

that no one bet on

and if you’re paranoid and in pain

you have to wonder

you really have to wonder

is the pain real?

or isn’t it?

and which answer is worse?