#hischosengrl

By the end of this week I should be in Bangkok!! Technically I will be there by Friday US (West coast) time but in Thailand I will be landing around 10 am on Saturday! I still cannot believe this is really happening!! I have dreamed and wished so many times to go but really never expected it to happen... I have been in contact with some of the people at the orphanage I will be visiting and it has really helped to ease my nervousness. It is super comforting to know I will have brothers and sisters in Christ there. My largest worry really is flying alone. I thought leaving to attend college without knowing anyone beforehand was nerve-wracking, this is about 3x worse! I am literally just rambling if you cannot tell. I feel like I have no time to sit down and write a proper post but I definitely want to document my initial feelings.

So much stress. Lifted.

Why I Love College

or more specifically,

Why I Love Cal Poly SLO

This is something I've been trying to figure out ever since I realized just how in love I am with this place and how much I hate leaving and how this place is now what I call home

I don't think it has to do with the people here. More than the people but the community here.

I don't think it has to do with the independence I have here. More than independence but the freedom I've gained to make my own choices and know they are the right ones.

I don't think it has to do with the fact that I got to start almost anew or that the majority of people call me a name cut from my full name. More than starting over but gaining a new identity where I feel I can be myself & express openly what I want for my life and where my focus is.

Most of all, I am in cloying endearment with this new step in life due to all of the support I get here to be me but also challenged to be the best me I can possibly be. All criticism is constructive & every compliment is straight from the heart.

Coming to Cal Poly, I was scared because I knew God wanted to me to come to this school but I had no clue why. I know He's still working to carry out this plan He has for me and it takes so much effort for me to put my faith in Him that He is guiding every single step. I'm so thankful though because I don't deserve to be accepted to this school and ultimately attend but yet He opened so, so, SO many doors.