Even when you're completely and totally in love with one another sometimes things don't fall together or stay perfect. Marriage is both beautiful and ugly. Marriage has struggles and even the littlest lie can damage a heart no matter how old it may be. I know it may seem stupid to anyone else but to me it makes me wonder was I so blind by love back then that I let myself be such an idiot? If I knew this then would you be my husband today? I loved you then and I love you wayy more now but what did you feel when you were keeping secrets? We both made mistakes but man I feel like an idiot because everyone was laughing at my while I stood by you. I mean you're a new man now and I am so lucky to have you but was our old love really the love I thought we had? Is our present based off a lie I thought in my heart was real?















