New Year's Day - Harry x Reader (Part 2 to What are you doing, NYE?)
Summary: Harry's done a number on you in the last 12 hours. You've gone from fighting for your boyfriend's attention to having trouble having him leave you alone.
warnings: lots of arguing, alcohol/drug use, angst.
a/n: read part 1 here! otherwise you WILL NOT understand what's happening.
I WILL BE DOING A PART 3, A HAPPY PART 3! YAY!
word count: 3.8k
y/n outfits throughout the part 1 / 2 / 3 harry outfits 1 / 2
"What do you think about that Austin guy, Y/N? He somehow found my IG and I want to think we hit it off.. do you agree?" Liv twirled her hair as she stared down at her phone. You laid on your back, stared at the ceiling, feeling empty and broken. "I don't know, Liv. Why?" You said monotoned.
She looks at you for a split second before looking down at her phone again. "Babe, come on. I'm trying to have a conversation with you."
You sigh. "I'm sorry... I just can't focus on very much." She shifts herself to lay next to you, you both staring at the ceiling. "Listen, honey. I won't talk about men anymore unless you're okay to listen. Okay?" You nod and she takes your hand in hers, squeezing it softly.
You felt the space between the two of you vibrate slightly. You look over and grab your phone to see Harry, calling you once again.
Harry's been trying to get a hold of you since the early hours of the morning. You, rightfully so, have sent him to voicemail more often than not.
"That fucker needs to get a clue, he fucked up, it's not even been a day. Ever hear of space?" She takes the phone out of your hands and answers it.
"Styles. Fuck off." Liv mutters.
"C'mon Liv, let me talk to her."
"Let me ask her. Hey, Y/N, do you want to talk to your two timing, sorry excuse of an ex boyfriend right now? NO? Didn't think so. She doesn't want to you."
"I didn't even hear her voice, Liv. C'mon."
"Harry, if you call back this number again, there's no telling the cussing out I will be doing. Leave Y/N alone. She clearly needs time away from you, give her that."
She hangs up and throws the phone off the bed on the carpeted floor. You squeeze her hand, feeling a tear slide down your cheek and down the side of your neck. Liv takes her hand and wipes the tear as she takes you into her arms, your held in tears easily flowing as you softly sob into her chest.
As you feel the tears let up, Liv's phone rings and she grumbles softly. She looks at the caller ID and groans.
"Styles, what the fuck did I say to you?"
"You said if you call back this number again. That was Y/N's, this is yours."
"Don't fucking play my words against me. You need to take a fuckin' hint, Styles."
"At least let me sit on speaker so she can hear me out. Please. I'll hang up as soon as I'm done."
Liv groans and rolls her eyes. "The second I hear shit I don't like you're getting blocked. I will not have you use me and my phone as a way to get an in to Y/N/N"
She puts the phone on speaker and places it in front of you. "You look at me if anything needs to be done, okay?" You nod and Harry starts talking.
"Y/N I swear to god, I did not kiss that girl."
"Ahem, but you did." Liv cut in. You look up at her with squinted eyes and she throws her hands up in defence. "Well its TRUE."
"Y/N, that kiss, it meant nothing to me. You're the only thing I feel anything with and that goes for everything. You're my constant. The reason my world has such a bright sun, because you are that source of warmth and joy for me. You are my life. I don't want to live if you're not in my life."
"Styles. Skip the ass kissing, tell her why you did what you did." Liv crosses her arms and you give her a slight smirk. She winks and you both look back down at the phone.
------ FLASHBACK -------
11:59PM, 60 seconds to midnight.
"Fuck, where is she?" Harry mutters to himself, searching the room for you. He didn't know if you were back from the bathroom and were as frantic to look for him as well so he stayed put, just in case you popped up in front of him to be his first kiss of the new year.
"Hey, handsome." One of the girls came up to Harry, feeling up his bicep and he shutters in discomfort.
"Hey, have you seen Y/N?"
"Don't worry about her, let's worry about what's going to happen in the next 10 seconds." She gets closer to him and Harry takes a small step back.
3!
2!
1!
Before Harry could turn to walk away, he feels a pair of hands grab his face and crash their lips on his. Harry, full of alcohol and hungry for the lips of his girlfriend, kisses her back for one moment before realizing who is in front of him and he immediately pulls away. The girl smirks at him as Harry looks over in front of him.
There she was, the love of his life.
And she'd just caught him in the one thing he never thought he'd do to her.
"Y/N-"
He watches you run towards the crowd of people and he runs a hand through his hair. "Fuck, Y/N!" He yells as she storms into the crowd, hoping to find you before it's too late.
Too bad for Styles, he already messed up.
------ PRESENT -------
"Wow." You say in shock.
"WAAAAIT A FUCKIN SECOND." Liv interrupts. "You mean to fuckin' tell me, you thought about your girlfriend while kissing one of those bimbo girls you had been flirting with the entire night? No way in HELL would I ever believe that bullshit."
"Well, lucky for you Liv, you don't have to believe me. That's up to Y/N" He says cockily over the phone.
"God you're such a arrogant fuck aren't you? You-you have NO idea how badly I want to rip your dick off and feed it to-"
"Liv!" You exclaim, smacking her arm. "Relax."
She takes a deep breath, in and out, then calmly continues.
"You're lucky Y/N is still nice to your lying, cheating ass. I'd have you kicked to the curb for good hours ago, but she's a good person. You fucked up, big time Styles. It's up to Y/N to believe you, thats right, but I will smack her silly if she chooses the wrong choice."
"Babe, please, can we talk in person? I promise, if you don't want to see me again after that, I'll respect your wishes."
You sigh.
"Fine."
"Wait. Really?!" He says excitedly through the phone.
"I'll be coming." Liv interjects, you look at her and she smiles.
"Liv will be dropping me off, if you do anything else stupid I won't stop her from doing what she has to do. Understood?" You say picking the phone and holding your knees with your free arm.
"Deal. See you soon, darling."
You hear a click on the other end and Liv groans. "Why can't you just let me slap the shit out of that two timing-"
"LIV! I swear to all the heavens above, if you do anything unprovoked, I will be cabbing home and I'll break up with you too!"
She gasps. "Damn, Y/N/N. You're getting too feisty." She places her hand on her chest and you smirk.
"Learned from my drama queen of a best friend." She slaps your arm playfully. "I'm so proud of you." She pulls you into another hug and you both get up to change for.... whatever this was going to be.
You put your shoes on and take one last look at the outfit you have on in the mirror. You sigh as you throw your hair in a claw clip and Liv smiles softly.
"Even when you don't try, you look beautiful, Y/N."
You smile. "It's hard dating a celebrity. You always have to look "somewhat" presentable in case someone takes photos or videos of you."
"You ready?" Liv grabs her keys from the rack at the door and you nod, following her to the door.
"Ready as I'll ever be."
---
The car ride to the coffee shop Harry chose was quiet, Liv turned her bluetooth on and, what do you know...
"Can't get rid of this fucker, even on MY Spotify." Liv went to change the playlist but you stopped her.
"Don't. I actually don't mind listening to his voice." You smile softly and turn your body towards the window as you listened to Sweet Creature, one of his songs on his first album. You remember the first time Harry found out you listened to his music and your stomach fluttered.
----FLASHBACK----
"How was your tour rehearsal, babe?" You greet Harry as he enters your vehicle. He places a soft kiss on your lips and you smile. "I missed you, a lot."
You and Harry had been casually seeing each other for months now, but, he officially asked you to be his girlfriend just over 2 weeks ago. You and him were having a beautiful time. You respected his busy schedule as he did yours, but no matter what, there was always time to be together. Even if it meant you driving him from one rehearsal to the next.
"I missed you too, H. Where you headed next?" You pulled your seatbelt back on.
"Well, I have an hour and a half break before I have to be at the next rehearsal. Should we.." He eyeballs the back seat and you slap his arm.
"You're gonna need longer than that, Styles." He smirks and kisses you one more time.
"God, you're amazing." He mutters on your lips.
You break the kiss and smirk. "I know. That's why you like me." He chuckles and slides back into his seat.
"Let's get some food in your stomach before you have to go" You say pulling out your phone and finding a decent restaurant to find food for Harry. He smiles softly, taking your hand in his causing you to look over at him.
"You're always thinking of everyone else, Y/N. You really are amazing."
You smile. "I care a lot about you, H. I just want to make sure you are okay before I drop you off." He kisses you one more time causing you to giggle.
"H. I like the kisses, but I gotta drive now!"
"Alright, alright. Let's go, angel."
You turn the car on and your playlist turns on automatically, playing Sweet Creature, Harry's song. His eyes widen and smile grows big as you feel a blush creep on your cheeks, you frantically try to change it but he's already chuckling.
"You're a fan, huh babe?" He smirks, crossing his arms in satisfaction.
You roll your eyes at his comment, turning a corner.
"Well, duh. I do like you, remember?"
"Well yeah I get that, but I didn't know you listened to my old stuff too." He smiles and you laugh.
"Sweet Creature is probably my favourite of yours. It's a great song." He smiles. "Thanks babe."
You smile. "Don't let that go to your head though, Styles. I just know talent when I hear it."
He smirks. "Mhm. You tell yourself that."
You slap his arm playfully and he laughs.
You both sing along to his songs as they play, sometimes just letting him sing, mesmerized by your boyfriend's voice.
---
The song changed to Woman and Liv rolls her eyes again as your stomach twists.
---
"Harry, what are you doing?" You walked over to your boyfriend who was laughing his head off holding two beers and girls giggling at his demeanour while feeling up his chest.
"Harry, get up." You feel yourself fill with heat as he just stares at you with a cocky grin.
"Oooh, I'm in troubleeeee" He slurs while everyone laughs.
"GET YOUR ASS UP STYLES." You yell. The whole room goes silent and he scoffs. "Fine. Sorry, mates. Gotta go, mom's getting mad." He snickers and the girls all giggle at him, you drag him out of the room by his hand and out to the backyard of one of his friends' houses.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing, Styles?" You cross your arms and he just stands there, losing focus quickly.
"C'mon babe, I'm just havin' fuuuuun" He laughs and walks to you but you put your hand out to him.
"Harry, I'm serious. You haven't eaten anything, you're fuckin' hammered and you smell like skunk. Have you been smoking too?"
"Hehe, yeaaaaah. It's all in good fun, baby. You need to let looooose." He wraps his arm around your shoulder and you push him away.
"Harry, I'm taking you home."
"The fuck you're not." He gets aggressive. You sigh.
"Harry. You're drunk, high out of your mind, and you have nothing else in your system. You're gonna have a nasty crash in a couple hours and I don't trust a single person in here to not take advantage of you."
He grunts. "I can take care of myself." He crosses his arms.
You eye roll and walk away from him, he follows you. "C'mon, Y/N. We're not together right? You don't have to care so much."
You stopped in your tracks. "You're right, Styles. We're not together and I don't have to care, but I do. I care a lot because, together or not, you matter to me. I want to make sure you're safe. Clearly you don't have the same feelings for me so I'll do as you say. I won't care."
You turn back around and he sighs. "Y/N/N."
"What?" You spat. He walks over to you sloppily and almost falls. "I don't feel well."
You sigh. "Let's go, drunkie." You wrap his arm around your shoulders so he could lean on you.
"Y/N?" He mutters.
"Hmm."
"Thanks for caring so much."
"Always."
You drive him to his house and you park the car waiting for him to get out. He looks over at you with a grin. "Will you stay with me?"
"Styles-"
"Please?" He gives you a drunk puppy dog look and you smirk. "Fine, but i'm taking the couch." You turn the car off and walk over to his side to help him inside.
"Liv's gonna kill me for not coming home." You chuckle.
"She doesn't like me, huh Y/N?"
"Well...."
"That says enough right there." He smirks.
You walk him over to the stairs and he shakes his head. "I'm not getting up there. I'll sleep in the living room." He shuffles over to the couch and flops on it, causing you to giggle at him.
"Don't laugh." He mumbles, face first on the couch. You laugh at him some more and he lifts his face, smirking at you as you lose yourself in a fit of laughter.
"Woo, sorry." You calm yourself down and he groans, shifting himself into a comfortable position.
You walk to his kitchen and grab him 2 advil and a bottle of water. "Now, Harry. You haven't eaten, i'm sure you won't want to eat, but, I'm gonna-"
You look over at him and he's snoring. You smile and place the stuff on the table for him.
Searching through his fridge and freezer, you find a frozen pizza and pop it into the oven. You make yourself a tea while it cooks. Watching him sleep so deeply and soundly.
"You needed that sleep, H." You say softly to yourself.
You place the cooked pizza wrapped up in the fridge and quickly write a note.
You leave the note for Harry next to the advil.
Styles,
You're gonna be okay. I'm sleeping in the guest room upstairs and will likely be gone by the time you wake up.
There's veggie pizza waiting for you in the fridge.
Feel better, H.
Love, Y/N.
---
"Y/N/N, we're here." Liv pulls the car into park and you look over at her.
"Thanks, Liv. I'll call you if things go wrong."
"You better." She pats your thigh and you smile, grabbing your phone from the cup holder and sliding yourself out of the car.
You look up at the sign, sighing softly. "Here we go."
You walk in and see him, sunglasses on, in the corner of the shop. Two cups at his table and him tapping the top of his lid, people watching out the window. You smirk softly and walk over to him.
"You don't look suspicious at all." You sit down and his head jerks to your direction, his smile slowly appearing.
"I'm a little hungover and, well.. didn't really sleep well last night." He slips his sunglasses off and his eyes are bloodshot. Your smile fades as you see his distressed look.
"Harry...."
"I brought you here to explain myself, not for you to feel sorry for me. I don't deserve that. I don't deserve you."
You sigh and take the cup in your hands. You smile weakly as you see that he got you the right drink.
"You-you got the right drink."
He smiles.
"With oat milk, of course."
"Thanks, Harry." You take a sip and the warm coffee has you humming softly. He smiles.
"Okay." You say placing the cup down. "Explain. I'm listening."
He sighs.
"What happened last night, my behaviour, my demeanour, all of that was inexcusable. I'm not used to having a long-term girlfriend, I've always been the type of guy to casually date women and the second commitment is put on the table, I run for the fuckin' hills because I'm scared. I'm scared of the idea of being tied down and not being happy. I'm scared of falling out of love with that person. Those feelings all changed, when I met you."
He takes your hand and you look down at his hand with a very small smile.
"You made me feel the most loved i've ever felt. In the short amount of time we've been together, you've put all of my needs before yours. You've shown up to everything, made sure I've eaten, made sure I was well rested, taken care of me when I was ill. You've gone above and beyond for me. You love me with your entire soul and I couldn't believe that someone like you existed, but I do now. You're the one in a million woman that comes around and makes lives so much better. You make my life better."
He looks down at your hand, noticing you rubbing your thumb on his hand in comfort.
"Even now..." He says, voice breaking but he clears his throat to continue. "When I don't deserve your comfort, your heart, you wear it on your sleeve and show me the consideration I don't deserve at all. I hurt you, but here you are, hearing me out, comforting me, I don't deserve you."
You watch a tear fall from his eye, you wipe it impulsively and he chuckles, his cheek falling into your hand.
"I'm scared, Y/N."
"Why, Harry?" you ask, taking your hand back.
"Because, I'm about to tell you something that's going to hurt you more."
You pull yourself back.
"Harry..."
"That wasn't the first time I kissed someone while we were together."
Your entire body fell numb. You sat in shock.
"Y/N. Please let me explain that as well."
"No. I-I can't believe you."
He looks at you wide eyed and you squeeze your eyes shut.
"You... I gave my all to you." You say shaking your head. "You don't love me, you love yourself."
"Y/N."
"Liv was right, you're a liar." You stood up and walked to the door, Harry grabbing your hand and you rip your hand away viciously. "Don't. Touch. Me."
You walk out of the cafe and stand outside, waiting for Liv.
"Y/N, please let me talk to you about it-"
You feel your arm swing up and slap him. He grips his cheek and you let hot tears fall down your cheeks.
"I-I can't believe I believed your sincerity for even a second in there. You made me feel like a fucking fool, Harry. I can't believe I ever loved you."
"You still do. I love you, you love me, that's why you came here today to listen to me. Y/N, please don't give up on me. I meant every word."
You look up at him, your handprint on his cheek, tears now flowing down his face as was yours. You sigh.
"Harry. I don't know if I can ever trust you again."
"Let me make it up to you-"
"And how the HELL, do you think you're going to do that? You've now admitted to cheating more than once-" "Only twice. Last night, and right at the beginning."
"Oh thank GOODNESS! Only twice, wow I'm a lucky girl!" You mock as you cry.
"Y/N. Please."
"Harry, I need time. I love you, but you need to decide where your priorities lie when it comes to your feelings. Do you want me? Or are you only thinking about yourself? I'll be waiting."
You turn to face Liv's car, her eyes watching you as she gets out of her car.
"What. the FUCK. did you do, Styles?" She speed walks over to Harry and you grab her arm. "Liv, don't." You show her the crowds slowly forming as Harry slips his sunglasses back on to avoid pictures of his teary eyes.
"You're fuckin lucky, Styles. I'd have your ass crying for days if you weren't in public right now." She grips your arm. "How dare you. You can't play with Y/N's heart like this, Styles. Get yourself together, I'm not letting her go back to you so easily. You need to PROVE to her that you love her and only her. No more games, no more lies. It's time to grow up, Styles."
You let her arm go and you walk up to Harry. "I will wait for you. I won't wait long, but I will wait. Please don't hurt me again, H." You watch tears fall from under his sunglasses. You wipe them with your hand.
"I-I love you, Y/N." He breathlessly says.
"Then show me that, Harry." You turn from him and walk towards Liv's car, feeling defeated and hurt. You don't know what to do anymore.
"You promised." She said pulling away from the coffee shop.
"What?" You sniffle wiping a tear away.
"You promised, Y/N. I don't see his ass limping, do you? You said I could do whatever I wanted."
"I-I believe him, Liv. I'm just hurt right now."
She sighs. "I know, babe. You're too kind and forgiving for this world." She pats your leg as you wipe the remaining tears.
"So, what are you going to do?" She asks turning away from the shop and down the road.
You look out the window, rain starting to fall.
"Wait for the storm to pass."
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IM SORRY IM SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG!
I honestly had a different idea and wanted it to end all cute BUT i want this to end completely different now. Part 3 will come out next weekend. Love you all hehe<3
I will most definitely let the part end at part 3. No more surprises, promise!
THIS 3 PART SPECIAL WILL CONTINUE!
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