#hiddlechelon

1. last beverage — I'm having tea right now. Yorkshire tea with two sugars and a splash of milk. :)

2. last phone call — I think to one of the after school program admins where I teach my SSAT class, because there was some confusion over Thursday. 3. last text message — Sent? To Rebecca hoping her day was better today. Or received? From John (my ex/roommate): I'll probably stop at the store. 4. last song you listened to — Crane Wife 1 by the Decemberists 5. last time you cried — I think it was on Monday because I was frustrated and sad.

HAVE YOU EVER: 6. dated someone twice — Yes. 7. been cheated on — Yes. 8. kissed someone & regretted it —  Yes. 9. lost someone special — As in died? Yes. My ex-fiancé, though we had been broken up for some time. Also my grandfather, whom I adored and was more like a father to me. Lost in other ways? Of course. I'm old. I've lost almost everyone who's ever meant anything to me. 10. been depressed — I struggle constantly with it. 11. been drunk and threw up — Of course. It's part of life. Though I don't often drink anymore, and I haven't been drunk in ages.

LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLORS: — black, grey, purple

LAST YEAR (2013), HAVE YOU:  15. Made a new friend —  Yes, online. 16. Fallen out of love — Umm... no. I guess not. 17. Laughed until you cried — Certainly. 18. Met someone who changed — Yes. Sadly. More than one. 19. Found out who your true friends are — No, but I certainly found out who they weren't. :( 20. Found out someone was talking about you — Sadly, that's a part of this shit website that I love so much. 21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend’s list — No kisses and I don't do Facebook.

GENERAL:  22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life — I don't even know who is on it anymore it's basically a fake account with a fake last name. 24. Do you have pets? — I now have two cats. My bratty little princess Orchid, the last of my brood of 9, and my recent adoptee Sam, who used to be my ex's cat and is now my baby chubby bun boy. 25. Do you want to change your name? — Not anymore. 26. What did you do for your last birthday — Not shit. 27. What time did you wake up today? — 4:00 AM because I couldn't sleep, but I always get up at 5 anyway. 28. What were you doing at midnight last night — trying to fall asleep 29. Name something you CANNOT wait for — Having sex again. Moving to England. Going back to school to get my Master's.  30. Last time you saw your Mother — I don't even remember; we don't speak 31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life right now? — I wish I lived somewhere else and I wish I wasn't alone (had friends in real life to do shit with and had a significant other/bf/Dom). 32. What are you listening to right now? — Actually nothing but the TV is droning in the background. 33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? — Yes, but also not the one I want ;) 34. What’s getting on your nerves right now? — The fact that it got cool but it's going to be 80 fucking degrees again this weekend even though it's fucking October 24 fuck this place I hate it. 36. Most visited webpage — this stupid website 37. Nickname — I used to have a bunch, but not really any now 38. Relationship Status — sadly single unless you count my imaginary relationships with James and Tom 39. Zodiac sign — Aquarius 40. He or She — Is this asking what am I? I'm female, cis, mostly straight but with bi tendencies. 41. Elementary — okay but I was bullied a little 42. High School — awesome for the most part except that no guys were interested in me and I wished they were 43. College —  everything I could ever want and more; if I could go to college and get degrees for the rest of my life I'd be happy 44. Hair colour — I'm a natural ginger/redhead but now it's a bit lighter since I'm getting old 45. Long or short — very long I need a haircut desperately 46. Height — barely 5’5” 47. Do you have a crush on someone? — not unless you count James and Tom 48. What do you like about yourself? — my intelligence and my natural red hair 50. Tattoos — 2 51. Righty or lefty — righty 52. First surgery — tonsils/adenoids out when I was 8 53. First piercing — ears 54. First best friend — I don't remember. Wait, no it was probably Lori. 55. First sport you joined — swimming 56. First vacation — I don't remember. Maybe Missouri or the Wisconsin Dells. 58. First pair of trainers — No fucking clue.

RIGHT NOW:  59. Eating — Had some Golden Oreos, but nothing right now. 60. Drinking — Tea 61. I’m about to —  Go upstairs and lie in my comfy bed. 62. Listening to — Nothing right now. 63. Waiting for — Tom to come fuck me in the ass.

YOUR FUTURE: 64. Want kids? — fucking christ no 65. Get Married? — fuck no 66. Career? — I kind of have one cause I'm an adult I guess this is for not adults? But it says college? I'm so confused....

WHICH IS BETTER : 

67. Lips or eyes — lips 68. Hugs or kisses — depends from whom 69. Shorter or taller — Than me? Taller. 70. Older or Younger — I tend now to prefer younger men, but it depends. 71. Romantic or spontaneous — both 72. Nice stomach or nice arms — I mean I don't know. I like both? 73. Sensitive or loud — sensitive I guess 74. Hook-up or relationship — right now I want a relationship but that's not to say I haven't enjoyed sex without commitment 75. Trouble maker or hesitant — Me? I don't know.

HAVE YOU EVER : 76. Kissed a stranger — y 77. Drank hard liquor — y 78. Lost glasses/contacts — don't wear them 79. Sex on first date — y 80. Broke someone’s heart — y 81. Had your own heartbroken — y 82. Been arrested — Yes but oh my god it's for the stupidest fucking thing it was for expired tag and no insurance and the cocksucker arrested me no shit I was on my way to class the asshole and handcuffed me (behind my back) and arrested me and they put me in with some crazy woman and I was so pissed I was crying and then they towed my car it got impounded I lost it and the judge felt so bad I didn't even have to pay any fines! 83. Turned someone down — y 84. Cried when someone died — y 85. Fallen for a friend — y