#hhhhhhhhhhha

sometimes i think itd be easier to just b alone for real like.... this is the worst lol.....i dont like this @   all hha......... i cant function like this and i dont know how to change it. and it isnt even anyones fault?? except mine but. like it doesnt have anything to do w the people im around really cause i love all of them so  much and i want them all to be so happy i just. im so freaking bad with these things. and i dont think im ever gonna get to a point where i know how to do them right and i know a part of it is probably these pills, like?? i know how meds work esp. meds like this like theres always an adjustment period but i just feel so lonely. all of the time. and idk i jus cant stand being half alone?? like if im gonna feel like this maybe i should just commit to it. im so tired of feeling crazy and like no one wants me around because i know how i am and idk . i have an isolated life anyway. maybe im not really the type of person that can be with people or smthn