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Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā š«š¬šØš« Ā š¬šš¬šŗ Ā , Ā š°šµš¬šæš¶š¹šØš©š³š¬ Ā Ā Ā / Ā Ā the Ā writhing Ā pulsing Ā Ā blood Ā warm Ā thing Ā Ā lurking Ā in Ā ancient Ā gaze. Ā Ā there Ā is Ā Ā a Ā lightness Ā of Ā spirit Ā and Ā soul Ā that Ā Ā has Ā yet Ā to Ā be Ā stripped Ā Ā from Ā him Ā smitten Ā with Ā what Ā can Ā be Ā found Ā gilding Ā the Ā bone Ā marrow Ā of Ā his Ā core. Ā Ā I Ā Ā WAS Ā A Ā GODDAMN Ā KING Ā ONCE Ā ! Ā Ā Ā teeth Ā hidden Ā behind Ā tight Ā lipped Ā Ā facade Ā , Ā a Ā mask Ā of Ā apathy Ā the Ā edges Ā curled Ā inward Ā to Ā flash Ā a Ā Ā peek Ā of Ā Ā ANGER Ā Ā / Ā Ā CRUELTY Ā / Ā KINDNESS. Ā Ā he Ā is Ā who Ā he Ā is Ā , Ā down Ā to Ā his Ā bones Ā , Ā to Ā his Ā roots. Ā to Ā the Ā Ā buds Ā yet Ā to Ā bloom Ā , Ā hot Ā house Ā flowers Ā thirst Ā quenched Ā with Ā suffering Ā , Ā with Ā regret Ā , Ā guilt Ā , Ā exhaustion. Ā Ā everything Ā about Ā him Ā is Ā tired. Ā his Ā hands Ā , Ā aching Ā and Ā scarred Ā , Ā shaking Ā with Ā the Ā liquor Ā and Ā the Ā urge Ā to Ā disappear. Ā Ā WHAT Ā A Ā FUCKING Ā COWARD Ā YOU Ā ARE ! Ā Ā the Ā urge Ā to Ā run Ā until Ā Ā heās Ā run Ā out Ā of Ā ground Ā , Ā until Ā Ā he Ā takes Ā to the Ā sky. Ā
and Ā aināt Ā Ā that Ā a Ā damn Ā laugh Ā ? Ā Ā aināt Ā that Ā a Ā fuckin Ā riot Ā ? Ā the Ā down Ā on Ā his Ā luck Ā Ā leprachaun Ā running Ā again Ā , Ā OLD Ā HABITS Ā DIE Ā HARD Ā Ā / Ā donāt Ā they Ā ? Ā Ā eyes Ā alight Ā on Ā dead Ā girl Ā walking Ā ( Ā not Ā for Ā long Ā though. Ā Ā not Ā for Ā long. Ā Ā canāt Ā make Ā the Ā world Ā wait Ā on Ā you. Ā Ā ) Ā Ā when Ā the Ā end Ā of Ā Ā her Ā world Ā came Ā it Ā passed Ā like Ā an Ā awkward Ā remark. Ā Ā no Ā one Ā was Ā proven Ā right Ā and Ā no Ā one Ā was Ā wrong. Ā Ā no Ā time Ā Ā left Ā for Ā forgiveness Ā or Ā regrets. Ā Ā THE Ā Ā WINDOW Ā IS Ā BACK Ā LIT Ā Ā dark Ā / Ā Ā tinted Ā in Ā shadows Ā Ā cast Ā with Ā flashing Ā neon Ā proclaiming Ā āOPEN.ā Ā Ā Ā there Ā Ā was Ā Ā some Ā Ā weighted Ā meaning Ā there Ā if Ā he Ā cared Ā to Ā Ā look Ā for Ā it. Ā Ā Ā ( Ā if Ā Ā he Ā tore Ā his Ā eyes Ā from Ā the Ā milky Ā eyes Ā and Ā sallow Ā skin Ā ) Ā Ā orange Ā warm Ā / Ā cheap Ā and Ā acidic Ā bar Ā lights Ā cast Ā her Ā in Ā something Ā almost Ā living. Ā Ā if Ā Ā you Ā ignored Ā the Ā reflection Ā beside Ā Ā her. Ā Ā dark Ā mirror. Ā Ā the Ā worst Ā sides Ā Ā of Ā her. Ā Ā ( Ā and Ā him. Ā ) Ā Ā
SOMEWHERE: Ā Ā amber Ā waves Ā of Ā grain Ā sway Ā in Ā a Ā light Ā breeze. Ā Ā SOMEWHERE: Ā a Ā tin can Ā clunks Ā merrily Ā on Ā itās Ā way Ā down Ā the Ā highway Ā , Ā the Ā grey Ā sun Ā faded Ā tar Ā and Ā the Ā shock Ā of Ā speeding Ā cars. Ā empty Ā country Ā highways Ā , Ā well Ā worn Ā roads. Ā Ā sun Ā faded Ā signs Ā proclaiming Ā Ā GOD Ā IS Ā REAL ! Ā Ā which Ā god Ā ? Ā which Ā god Ā ? Ā which Ā fucking Ā god Ā ? Ā Ā his Ā southern Ā comfort Ā burns Ā on Ā the Ā way Ā down Ā , Ā true Ā to Ā itās Ā name Ā , Ā akin Ā to Ā a Ā house Ā and Ā home. Ā what Ā amounts Ā to Ā one Ā for Ā someone Ā whoās Ā boots Ā are Ā so Ā worn Ā , Ā caked Ā in Ā the Ā red Ā dust Ā and Ā clay Ā of Ā the Ā land. Ā washed Ā with Ā the Ā morning Ā dew. Ā Ā tongue Ā unsticks Ā from Ā roof Ā of Ā mouth Ā , Ā words Ā swell Ā up Ā the Ā bear Ā trap Ā of Ā his Ā throat. Ā HE Ā HAS Ā NOT Ā LEARNED Ā TO Ā TEMPER Ā THE Ā WAR Ā RAGING Ā IN Ā HIS Ā UNGRATEFUL Ā MOUTH. Ā Ā ā Ā what Ā are Ā you Ā gonna Ā do Ā dead Ā wife Ā ? Ā ā Ā Ā apropos Ā of Ā nothing. Ā Ā uncaring Ā if Ā his Ā voice Ā cuts Ā through Ā hers Ā or Ā the Ā rest Ā of Ā the Ā worldās. Ā Ā a Ā slow Ā blink Ā , Ā a Ā fan Ā to Ā flames Ā , Ā apathy Ā to Ā hide Ā the Ā edge Ā of Ā regret Ā , Ā alcohol Ā to Ā dull Ā Ā the Ā senses. Ā ā Ā what Ā are Ā ya Ā gonna Ā do Ā , Ā hmm ? Ā youāre Ā fallin Ā apart Ā , Ā how Ā many Ā times Ā are Ā you Ā gonna Ā fuck Ā around Ā like Ā RAGGEDY Ā ANNE Ā Ā before Ā you Ā stop Ā showing Ā face Ā ? Ā Ā your Ā man Ā already Ā tasted Ā death Ā on Ā your Ā tongue Ā and Ā left Ā once. Ā ya Ā think Ā heād Ā take Ā kindly Ā to Ā this Ā ? Ā ā Ā his Ā boot Ā nudges Ā the Ā bench. Ā encompasses Ā all Ā of Ā her.
