#heo.txt

why can’t we be honest? is a never ending video loop. it’s only meant to be a small part of the bigger conversation that a lot of us struggle with. i used clips from these videos (1, 2) and the music was built in from vllo, the video editing app i used. when i collected all the clips, i wasn’t expecting to use the original audio, but as i scrubbed through i realized it told a cohesive story. subtitles were put in for those who don’t understand korean as i wanted to fully communicate what changmin, the main subject, was saying. going back and forth to avoid these honest conversations can loop forever because it’s easier that way. i hope we can all take a moment to stop and say what’s on our minds.

to my mom, who found out too late that she never wanted to be married or be a mother. i understand — and i hope everything i do makes you feel at peace.

i played with the concept of a never ending video loop for my final project and with a mundane subject that matters immensely during these times. many people should be washing their hands thoroughly throughout the day if you’re out and every time you come back home. i like to think that everyone does their part to flatten the curve, wear their masks, and wash their hands but that was not the case when i visited a mall to pick up a few things. so, for a not so gentle reminder: wash your fucking hands and wear your god damn mask! it can feel like most of our days are taken up by this reality but it is never wasted.

i decided to split up my ten gifs into two parts in a similar sense to a before and after. although the two sides have different coloring and vibes, they both have a sense of calmness. even if people do change, i think there is the feeling of disappointment with the relief — like the secret hope that things do change completely while wanting everything to stay the same. in my own personal experiences, i had moments where i felt a community that i attached my identity to break up and lead me to personal growth. this project pushed my current gif making abilities to present a full story with color palettes and mindful composition.