I need help
I’m just going to give it to you straight. I’m a 14 year old girl. I often wear traditionally masculine clothes with a sports bra (because it makes my chest smaller). It makes me happy and more confident. However there’s those few between days where I feel particularly feminine. And I feel good about myself on those days. Some days I feel neutral. Not particularly masculine or feminine, just human. The other day I was wearing a new more masculine outfit and my confidence levels were the highest they’d been in a very long time. I had put on some fake nails I had laying around because I was bored. I had to go to a bridal shower later that week, so my mom told me not to take them off when I said I was going to. I didn’t want to wear a dress to said shower, and I had a nice shirt and pants picked out. My mom said I couldn’t wear the outfit though, and had me wear a dress. I felt very masculine and didn’t want to. Long story short I ended up wearing a dress but changed into the original outfit ASAP. This all leads to tonight when as I was taking off the fake nails my mom asked me if I wanted to be a boy. Now she’s extremely transphobic so I said no. That got me thinking, what does this make me? Am I a girl? Am I a boy? Am I in between? I prefer she/her pronouns but I feel like a man sometimes, and neutral most of the time. I need some serious help here. It doesn’t help that at the time of writing this it’s almost my birthday. I’m going to be 14 in less than half an hour. And I’m having an identity crisis.
