#helpgodhelp

Damn. I do so well when I finally have that great group of people where I'm safe and known and loved, but then I get away from that group + having way too much time to think + getting a crush on somebody right as I'm leaving California and now I'm a wreck. I just feel sick to my stomach thinking about romance and love. I don't know what to do. I don't feel like there's any action I can take or anyway to get that safe place for myself here. I know I would have to be honest to do it, but I can't because there are more important things at stake. Lord have mercy on me!