#hellogoodbyecrushie

Can't really remember when we started to drift apart years ago. We started nice and friendly and I don't even pay that much attention anyway. I was a new girl in town and everyone's new child to take care of as I am not even familiar on the food or locations of your country. I do remember though that I used to spend a lot of time with you and was later on adopted by your circle of friends. Great times. Until one day I heard a story from one of your closest friends at work that you stated that I am drifting away from you. And I can't even understand where I went wrong because all the flashbacks in my head played that you were the one who drifted away cause you don't like the people I invite to spend free times along with you. The last thing I can recall before we stopped talking for so long were the moments in your car - long drive, you singing the songs I have loved from a musical movie and asking me about a blockbuster movie you intend to watch on premier day and I can't even remember if you asked me to go. But this car memory happened months after the drifting apart story so it was still a blur if everything was really my fault. You never said anything after. We just co-existed. Birthdays. Gatherings. Reunions and farewells. We were both there along with your circle of friends but you never said anything. You made it looked like everything's okay between us but after every event, we treat each other like strangers. I was actually surprised that you even invited me on your own farewell party - must be the awkwardness from your circle of friends if I end up uninvited as I've been with you guys for so long. It was another surprise for me that you've attended my farewell party as well. No questions, not even a word nor goodbye. You just came and make sure your presence is felt by your circle of friends I guess. But still, it was a big deal for me that you've decided to go even though everything felt uneasy. I just left and settled with what remains on my memory.