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        𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐂.

                (’ 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚔)                 adjective

1. when the surgeons open up your body they will find an unending winter within. a slowness, a stillness in the evergreen needles of your bones. no blackbirds or swift foxes. NO WHISPERING, PUSHING WIND. only overlapped dark trees and white snow, dark trees and white snow, dark trees and white snow.

2. YOU DREAM ABOUT HEAT. you dream your skin bursts open like the skin of an overripe yellow tomato does, all your gold juice seeping into hungry earth. you dream the dripping cold demons fly out of your ribs and into the mountain caves where they belong, buried in muddy riverbeds, curled around wet stalactites, nested with newborn bats, anywhere, anywhere but inside you.