#hellhour

Planeringsdag på förskolan = solopremiär

Föris var stängt i fredags, de hade planeringsdag. Det är himla opraktiskt på kundsidan, men det är som det är. Jag tänker på alla de barn som inte har en föräldraledig förälder hemma, de som måste ha passning under dagen om inte någon av föräldrarna ska behöva ta föräldraledigt eller semester. Borde inte de erbjudas ett alternativ…? Anyway, det var inte alls det jag skulle berätta. Poängen är…

The experience I was thinking of was in NYC at my art school’s lgbt club (I know there are definitely some trans ppl at that school tho) but the time I was at an event they started talking about a show with a trans character and I said something like “as a trans person i dont like how theyre portrayed as always miserable and the Trans Experience is awful and we all die young, there are never any shows about trans ppl going on adventures” and everyone got quiet and just stared at me for a few seconds, and I realised that (most likely) none of the people there were also trans. They started talking about different shows right after I think. I also found out that most of the lgb(t) events were being held at the women’s dorm and I did not want to go back in there after I spent my second year being miserable in the women’s dorm bc that’s when I realised I was definitely trans (not a woman). (And also when I lived there some ppl made some weird jokes about lesbians, and everyone assumed everyone was straight and it was icky for me)... But back to that night at the lgbt club I just remember going home that night feeling so miserable bc I realised that most lgbt spaces and media are really just LGB with no T considered. Even at an art school in nyc. (Ofc that also means everyone is busy and slightly antisocial bc its school, but still) I’m pretty sure I got home and was miserable All that night bc the morning after was pretty memorable with me in my gross sweats being asked to hang out by a cute person in my dorm lmao.