Hi, i am pansexual and i am currently (for the longest time) been in love with my bestfriend. He’s a guy and we’ve been through thick and thin together. Last night he called me, said he has something very important to tell me.
He told he’s gay. And he’s in love with someone. My heart shattered to million pieces and for the longest minute of my life, i just cried. He told me he’s sorry but what the heck. You don’t feel sorry for being brave to finally admit to yourself and to everyone else who you really are. So instead of dropping the call and bawl my eyes out for the love that could’ve been, i gathered whatever courage i have left and told him i am so proud of him. Which genuinely I am. And that I wish i’m there with him so i could give him a hug.
I’m still in love with him. I’ll probably always will. He told me he’s ready if i ever decided to walk away. Well i told him fuck you for even thinking i’m gonna just leave you after this act of bravery. And we just laughed. And I laughed all the pain that i felt at that moment and then i realized, seeing him happy and finally free from any secrecy, that made me genuinely happy too. Someday, the pain that i felt will just fade away, but one thing will not, the friendship that we found with each other.
