#he'llneverknow

He has no time to have quality time with me. He is on graveyard, and yet does not have time to spend with me during the day. I know he has to rest, catch up on his sleep. But when it is weekend, there is still no time put on me. When I have school, I rarely get texts from him. He once told me he woke up at 3 in the afternoon right after I finished school. But even though, nothing happens. He's up when I'm sleeping, and during the day, he is sleeping while I'm up. Our time is so imbalanced. As if we are on a long distance relationship. He has off days on week days, and during those times, I'm in school. For that, I understand. Although, he can come over to the house after school, he'd rather stay at his home. I would always have to find a reason for us to meet like pretend I do not have a ride home, so that he could come and pick me up even though I can either ride the bus home or ask my cousin to take me home. Right now, he's home. His wifi on his phone is off so my messages isn't going through his phone. I did see him last week, but he only took me to drive around and after that, he didn't get down from the car to spend more time with me. In fact, that was the day after our Monthsary. We also did not spend our Monthsary together. I'm just really sad. I hope this goes away and that I will stop thinking about it...