#hayden sinclair

out of the house, she grabs the keys, runs for the hills and doesn't leave a letter, that way the impact will be much better, away from the man that she's grown so fearful of, so fearful of. i don't ever want to see you again. i don't ever want to see you again. i don't ever want to see you again. i don't ever want to see you again.

why, oh why, do you wear sunglasses in the home when the sun went down about an hour ago? why, oh why, do you wear sunglasses in the home when the sun went down about an hour ago? life should not be that way.

now, i just mentioned cruella, and this is where she kind of comes into play. i think the choice to switch pronouns and try to go more with the abusive relationship vibe was, in part, diego attempting to mask the real inspiration of the song and, additionally, just something he thought might make it a little more like the kind of music they get from auradon. people write about love, not family, you know? even if auradon love is obviously a lot happier.

anyway, the first part is kind of his bitterness towards carlos for not saying goodbye. logically, once he’d heard from enough people how it all went down, he realize that carlos hadn’t even found out with enough time to prepare himself, forget about saying any goodbyes. but, you know, feelings aren’t really rational, and he’s Not Over It.

always up or down, never down and out; dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. always up or down, never down and out; dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces.

at some point, there would have to have been an attempt to make the song relatable to the audience, right? not so much filler lyrics as just fleshing the piece out, which is kinda the purpose the chorus here is serving, although it’s still a reference to carlos and his nightmares and the stutter he sometimes struggles with (not sure it’s been addressed here at all, but i’m pretty sure it’s something a and i have talked about, at least. maybe. also possibly something that’s just been in my own head, but i digress).

now that i'm grown, i've seen marriages fall to pieces. now that i'm grown, i've seen friendships fall to pieces.

weekend warriors, and our best friends; the writers weren't kidding about how all good things must end. then again some things, then again some things are far too good, some things are far too good to go ahead and let go.

always up or down, never down and out; dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. always up or down, never down and out; dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. speak now or forever hold your peace.

this is sort of the point where he picked the song back up and finished fleshing it out after more kids were being sent over to auradon. dizzy, and her and jackson’s other sisters, anthony, august, they were probably the hardest to let go of, being family to the band members, but they definitely cared to see certain others going. and it’s the same kind of bittersweet feeling, to be glad that the others are going somewhere better, but to be hurt by the separation and being left behind, even if at least now there was some hope of joining them eventually.

we won't forget tony or johnny, oh, oh, no matter how they miss us they still wish us the best on the road. garrett took a plane to paris, france, now he's cooking up entrees for the pretty, pretty french girls. bookends, blue and clarity, to the wall and grace. darkside, wish, and a toast to the late figure 8.

weekend warriors and our best friends, the writers weren't kidding, but the good things will live in our hearts.

again, slight changes (names, exact situations) meant to keep the song a little more versatile (especially now that there’s hope of making music in auradon eventually) and not directly calling anyone out. this is sort of that reminder that people are leaving, moving on to better things, etc. gonna be honest, though, the fifth and sixth lines are beyond me. i don’t even know the original meanings, besides assuming they’re references to inside jokes, so i’m not even gonna try to assign them new meaning. dwi.

always up or down, never down and out; dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. always up or down, never down and out; dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. always up or down, never down and out; dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. always up or down, never down and out; dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces.

gotta go out on a strong chorus, right?

but, yeah, anyway, this all just sort of snuck up and sucker-punched me in the feels when i was waiting for the bus after work earlier, so i thought i’d share for anyone who might be even remotely interested lol.