#havingareallyhardtime.

The third time around wasn't anything like the first two times. I went in induced and had a baby 12 hours later the first time. I pushed for an hour and had a baby. 17 months later I induced at 12 pm and had a baby by 10 pm pushing for 30 mins. This time around I was 10 cm at like 8 pm and pushed for at least 3 hours with lots of turning to get the baby to move and come down in between. After 3 hours of pushing with legs clear over my head they decided at 230 am to do a csection. I have the worst pain. I know I have to poop before it's even time to go. I know it's from all the pain and stress of labor but it's almost 3 weeks later and it's still painful. I don't know what to do. I know for sure that I am not having anymore kids. I hate my stomach now. I was ok with the stretch marks, the jiggly belly, the weird feeling of your stomach after but I'm not ok with the incision that's at my lower stomach anymore with this huge bulge that wasn't there before. I hate the way it looks now. I hate myself now. I'm going to try weights and working out as soon as my body is ready. I doubt that will help where my csection is at. I'm really stressed about it. Maybe it's the fact that my husband no longer looks at me. He hasn't since I was 3 months pregnant. Hasn't touched me nothing.