It's been really rough lately, and I'm just plowing through it. I have so much art I need to do and no desire to do it. I've been gaming and stuff, which is nice of course, but I've got that weird lingering dread that is hovering over my head. Lots of medical stuff which I'm suffering my way through and managing, and yadda yadda. I think taking a trip might be nice, maybe I'm suffering from feeling stagnated or something? I'm not sure. I think it's just everything at once stacking up to make me feel messed up. Beyond that like disassociated strange aloof feeling, and yet somehow feeling isolated. All this yapping to say nothing feels right and I don't know how to fix it, or if it's just my job to withstand it. I was in ihop the other day and they started playing a song my mom really liked and I started bawling which is really upsetting and embarrassing, and since then I've just felt so... drained. Occasionally something makes those feelings come back up, a lot lately, then I spend a few days feeling miserable anytime it's too quiet or I have too much thinking time and I have to recover just to do it all over again.
