#hatred rant

So, my secondary rant after the whole Niina/Izumi conflict. With Momoko, I admit at first she seemed to be pretty static as in she had that fear of sex that her friend Kazusa had, but not as bad. To be honest, when I was getting into the show, I almost forgot that she was in the show because of how the focus was placed onto Kazusa’s feelings for Izumi; Rika getting together with Shun; and Hitoha trying to get the teacher to sleep with her. Momoko seemingly was the least developed as with Niina, until the later episodes gave her more of a purpose. 

From what we had of a potential arc for Momoko started around the time she met Satoshi through happenstance. Let’s get this out of the way: I hated him. He was snobby, egotistical, and he couldn’t pick up on the fact that he was disturbing Momoko. During that time, Momoko started to question her sexuality when she saw that she was more drawn to Niina’s gorgeous features (especially the bath episode where she had inner monologues about Niina’s body, which kind of squicked me out), Eventually, it dawns on her that she had feelings for Niina, and she does eventually blow up on Satoshi when he introduced his friends to her. While I feel that if that were me in that situation, I’d go about it a different way, I nevertheless applaud Momoko for standing up for herself. So with that being said, and the eighth episode with two confessions one after the other, maybe this would mean that it came time for Momoko to confess to Niina, and possibly get together with her, right? 

Wrong.

Niina instead reflects on her first love and heartbreak from helping Izumi confess to Kazusa. So, because of that, she was going to decide to have another. Momoko overhears this and is naturally concerned about the sinister undertones of it. Episode 9, she confronts Niina and asks her if she was really contemplating on taking Izumi from Kazusa and when Niina bluntly says that she didn’t know yet, Momoko decides to confess to her then and there to stop her from going down that path. But as you’d imagine, Niina rejects her, stating that she didn’t see it as right to have ess-ee-cks with a friend. 

WHY THE FUCK DO YOU HATE ME

REALLY?

DO YOU LIKE TO FUCK ME OVER EVERY DAY

TO WHERE NOTHING CAN GO RIGHT

not me, my mom

because even though he's got my number, in my fucking file, and I left him three fucking messages, 2 on his voicemail and one with his medical assistant saying NOT to call my mother, he's a fucking asshole who only cares where the money's coming from, not who his patient is.

And he called to tell HER to tell ME

that it doesn't matter that I'm fucking violently claustrophobic and needlephobic, they refuse to provide me with an open MRI,

so they're gonna stick me in a fucking tube making screaming robot sounds, and shove needles into my arms and pump me with radioactive fluids.

fuck

my

life