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Well I've finally found the time to come on tumblr and type all this out. My apologies if you check this on a regular basis and have seen anything new for awhile. Last week and weekend I was camping with: my M, her BF,y brother, aunt and uncle and younger cousin. It's was fun except for the really bad sunburn I'm still recovering from. It's all across the top half of my back and shoulders part of my arms, chest, front and back of thighs. It equals a whole lot of not fun. But it's slowly getting better. I started texting a guy I used to have a thing with again while camping. Not to worry I won't be falling into that again, but texting is the only thing that would brighten my day of camping sometimes. And interesting and fun conversations are always the best to have. And so incase I mention this guy from know on I'll refer to him as 'mr. Fuckable' and yes I know the name doesn't make sense considerin I say nothing is going on between us but that's this guys new 'nickname' after I had the balls to tell him to think he's very fuckable. Moving on now. On the last day of camping I got the bad news I knew was coming. That my great grandma had passed away. I knew it was going to happen soon but it still didn't make it any easier to hear. So thank god for my wonderful aunt who made sure we still went on and did what was planned for that day, it helped keep the sadness of my mind a bit. So the next morning we got up and headed back home. And then went to the wake and the next day the funeral. I don't know about anyone else but I don't do well at funerals. Cry like a baby. But it helped that I helped keep one of my little cousins occupied. Yes I still cried but it was ok. Of course it was hard to think how my great grandma wasn't going to just sit up and wake up. But I'm trying to do what my dad told me to do 'remember the good things'. So after the funeral later that day I went to work because life has to go on. And it was the saddest day at work. I tried to stay positive but didn't feel right inside. And all the days that have passed after that have just been another day. Of working and nothing too exciting. Except for a few days ago when my aunt came with to my ortho appointment and then we went shopping afterward. That was a great day and after we got home she gave me baking lessons which were a success. So now for today I get to go to work for 9 hours and then come home and probably read my book instead of being productive with anything else haha. And also! It's getting more exciting looking forward to my birthday and getting tattoed because it is only 28 days away now!!!!!!!!!! Well my tumblrs I know this wasn't my usual goodnight time post so see you later and i hope you all have wonderful days :)