#hateanxiety

To be totally honest I have really been struggling with my PTSD as of late, with the fear that another infection could send me back to the hospital. As I write this I am hoping we have me on the right antibiotics. Unfortunately my instincts were correct about having another uti. It is also close to mother's day which is a another trigger because due to a bad experience with a pump replacement I was in a coma for two mother's day weekends in a row. (A year apart ) I have been getting frustrated with myself feeling anxious over every little thing PTSD is a very real thing and it affects those not just in the military. Which if I am truthful I didn't realize PTSD could be caused by so many different factors other than military service. #ptsdsucks #hateanxiety #exhausted #chroniillness #overthinking #ptsdawareness #anxiety #mentalhealthawareness https://www.instagram.com/p/BxLYNSkhJgn/?igshid=956qrbgwx0mp

Been dealing with a lot. Been in counseling for the past two months and now on medication for anxiety and depression for a few weeks now. Still dealing with major self esteem and body image issues. And that’s been 20yrs going now. Just wish that I’d hear an understanding voice. And not feel like I’m not allowed negative feels on anything. I’m human. Humans have good and bad days. But sometimes I would like to hear nice things more than once in a while. I may not always say “thank u” when given compliments but they don’t go out the window either. I just don’t want to be feeling like the unwanted. #handlingdepression #hateanxiety #tryingtobebetter https://www.instagram.com/p/BulH4fVgkVo/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=15z6b40kodxmg

Am I the only one who like hates telling people they have anxiety. Like I feel like they just look at me so differently. Or whenever we're watching something on tv and something about anxiety comes up they'll just look at me and I hate it. But like I also like wish I could tell someone who would understand and just be there for me.

Just one of those moments I can't sleep. #Needsleep #Hateanxiety #anxietysucks

sowwy~