#has sunk

Ohey I thought I’d update y’all on the short ship :P Not that I believe you want to know. But if you were at all following that stuff, this is for you! This whole week, he was super awkward and quiet and stuff. Like omfg it was really uncomfortably awkward.. And Thursday he asked me to meet him before school. When I did, nothing happened; he shy-ed out, I guess. And then Friday during lunch, I sat down at his table at the library and William was making things way too obvious. Actually, the whole week, EVERYBODY made it suuuper obvious to the point that it was just annoying. People kept saying, ”I think David wants to talk to you.” So Friday at lunch, I just decided to leave the library cause it was seriously just annoying that everybody was pressuring him to ask me out. I went to my next period classroom and was finishing hw when William called me and asked where I was because David wantes to meet me. And in the background, I could hear somebody say, ”Well, do you want to pay?” And that too was super irritating. So asking me out was part of a bet? Fine. Well I told William where I was and David came a few minutes later. But to be honest, I was so annoyed with everybody else by that point. But I said no, not because of the bet or his friends or the pressure, but because I seriously have no time or energy to put into a relationship. With all my KC problems and college apps, I cannot put my focus on a boy. But seriously. You should've seen how much other people were pressuring him and it was fucking obvious and annoying. On the phone, William kept saying, ”I don't know why he wants to meet you though. I dont know why he wants to talk to you.” And I just thought, ”Are you fucking serious? Everybody knows. Even I know.” Gah I told David we should just wait cause I'm super busy and crap. But to be honest, I just don't want it anymore.

I'm going to go sob In my pillow. Good Night.