#harteattack

while my BFF Dan was here for a few days, we recorded this. :)

Today, I finished my 90 day poetry writing challenge, just in time for Poetry Month.

I got to thinking about people and relationships, whether it be romantic or platonic or whatnot. I realized I spend a lot of time glossing over the flaws of those that I care about. And that’s kind of a shitty thing to do. I realize that people are inherently flawed, including myself and those I care about. I would like to take this time to apologize to those that I’ve refused to see the flaws of. I would like to apologize for any kind of shitty behavior I might have had in the past, any shitty behavior I have currently, or any future shitty behavior in the future. PLEASE CALL ME OUT ON IT. I’ll do my best to change and grow as a person. I would like  to be forgiven for anything that I may done, but that is entirely up to all of you. And I know I don’t deserve to be forgiven.

Fill this out and tag 10 people you’d like to get to know better.

Can’t wait to see it. I’ve been thinking of doing it too. Just need to save up for a capture card

I HAVENT DONE ANYTHING YET

but

Sidney wants to do something

so I had to fix what I didn't know, and in testing realized I was wrong about other things so now I have to learn more things

I really have no clue what I've been doing the past month. It's gone by so very fast. Not even the month, just the year in general. It's going to be May in a quick minute.

I took a two week vacation. 

One week back in my hometown of Hayward, CA. It was really nice. I got to see familiar faces and see Melanie, Suzy and Liliana! As much as I loved seeing them and hanging out with them. I didn't feel... like I was at home? or had any sort of peace or felt independant? Maybe it's because I don't actually live there anymore or go to school out there. I dunno. Just didn't feel like I was at home. I really, really did love being with Mel and her showing me some good animes. I really missed just sitting on the couch not really saying anything but enjoying each others company. it was so nice.

I TRAVELLED OUT OF STATE FOR THE FIRST TIME. WOW. Not just one state but 2 states. Illinois and Wisconsin, Aw snap. I didn't get to meet all my frans. But I got to meet my loves: Daniel, Katharine and Tina, for the first time. Got to see Chelsea for the 2nd time!! It felt so surreal.

When I was riding the BART train to SFO i kept thinking to myself "WHAT IN THE ACTUAL FUCK AM I DOING? I AM ACTUALLY GOING OUT OF STATE TO MEET THESE PEOPLE IVE BEEN TALKING TO FOR 3 YEARS THIS IS FUCKING CRAZY!".

AHHH!!!

When I was in Chicago. I don't even know what to say. I felt so at home, more so than hayward. It was really strange. I felt like I belonged. It felt really great not being in California for a change. It felt really nice to get away from the past and current lifestyle for awhile. (also... SNOWWW)

Can I just say that I love Chelsea, Katharine, Daniel and Tina very fucking much? Ya. I do. These bitches... I dont even... I can't describe how much I love these bitches. I just love them. I havent felt this way in a long time. 

I could really go on forever about this whole trip. All I know is I found some inner peace. Whenever I get sad I just think of these amazing beautiful individuals. 

I just really want to thank Daniel for letting me stay and putting up with me for an entire week at his place. Also thank you to his roommates as well, they were just lovely. 

PICK ME!