Did I Miss the Party? 11/23/13 9:45pm
Today was a rough one to get through, I can never find the heart to wade through boredom and unproductiveness. There’s a kind of burning in my stomach and chest when I’m not worried about something, I feel incomplete and kind of useless. But regardless of my feelings today continued to tread on endlessly as I first went to school to talk to my chef, found he wasn’t there. Then went to a hospital to volunteer in their kitchen to learn a little something about nutrition, and found out I had to wait for my paperwork to process before I can serve anything to sick people. Then slumped home to bake bread and make soup for the first time to use up my game stock.
I made veggie soup, which tasted like shit until I just “Butter might work” and threw half a stick in it. It tasted okay and was a good way to waste time waiting for my bread to go through its final proofing. I also went to my parent’s house and tore my old room apart to find something memory like to hang on my wall. I did, and oh god, it didn’t relieve the boredom. Now I’m reading a book, way ahead in schedule and considering turning my play station on for like the 3rd slow day in a row. Sometimes I feel like I’m a failure of a chef because I get 8 hours of sleep, but damn…
It feels good to be a gangster
