*cont. Hopefully ay huwag mo sana isipin especially nung nasambit ko ito in pain, na lahat ng ginawa natin at care na ipinaranas at pinaramdam ko sayo ay dahil may hinihingi o umaasa ako ng kapalit, kasi hindi. Malugod ko yong ibinigay at happy ako na gawin yon for you – yung mga conversations, pag-carry sa ML & in real life, mga byahe, ministry and kain adventures, pag-tantos ng mga goals at dreams natin, mga pagsama even in inconvenient times, hagulgol at dalanging pastoral with you, maging yung mga make or break moments, I’m glad it happened. I want to cherish it that way, something that I can treasure. Pero sa ngayon, ayoko muna tambayan para maka-move forward ako.  Sa kabila nito, naalala mo ba yung prayer ni Pastor para sa atin? Na kung anuman yung meron tayo ay ma-keep at mag-lead sa ikabubuti nating parehas? Ito ang prayer ko para sa atin. Yung sinabi mo namang we can be the best of friends, oo, sana nga. In a better circumstance siguro, we can. Baka nga we already had na because that’s what we do best, ang maging kaibigan sa isa’t isa. And I want to thank you for that. Life has already been hard and complicated for the both of us (at pasasalamat sa Panginoon na sinusustain Niya lahat ng pangangailangan natin), and I cannot let this be another battle you or I have to suffer from. Things may not have been what we wanted it to be dahil magkaiba tayo ng naging nasain. For now, I hope for both of us to find the peace & healing we are yearning for. And as long as I live, you will always have someone who is happy and will be hoping the best in anything you choose to do. And in case you didn’t get it, I love you. God bless you & to the person we’ll become moving forward. -para kay d It was hard not to feel frustrated. This time around, I thought I was proceeding with more caution — only for the same scenario to unfold. (yet I still found myself in a familiar place.) Perhaps the 2023/2024 version of me didn’t lack wisdom—but chose hope anyway. And maybe that’s not a failure. Maybe that’s just part of learning where to place my heart next time. Charge to experience.