#hardlyinteresting

- @hardlyinteresting

I want this summer to be more than me moping in my basement hoping to find some new adventure. I have spent hours and hours hoping for something to fall into my lap, depression does that to a person. During the COVID-19 crisis I have been so lazy and unkept that I have no idea how to reinvent myself. Does anyone else feel like this?

At this very moment I should be writing a paper on Aristotle and his ethical boundaries and its relation to friendship, but honestly, I couldn’t think of anything worse to spend my time doing. I spent the entire day yesterday completing a project on a book I failed to read. I have to admit, I am piss-poor at doing my homework and studying in a timely fashion. Although I don’t show haste in completing my assignments, I have been able to keep my grades up this semester in all but one class, which I absolutely loathe. I won’t reveal my secret class because I don’t want to get a bad grade on my final because of it.

The difference from me from any other blogger, I don’t want to gain anything from this except for my own maturity and motivation. Motivation has been a huge issue as of late. I have been doing well in school, but I have dwindled in every other part of my life. I mean COVID-19 has given me a lot of reason to stay home and do nothing; I think that I should eventually get up and attend my own life. I am thinking of getting a pair of roller skates; they were my favorite activity when I was a child and I recently saw a gal on social media rocking them so I thought I might give them a try. I don’t want to give them a try just to regain my childhood memories, because no offence, my childhood is so messy that it is not even fond to think about. I want to try to roller skate again to reset my life, to give it meaning besides trying to finish college and having a wonderful boyfriend.

What would you blog about if you had the chance? Because sides of me wanted to make it about my sad childhood and my love life, or lack-thereof. Oh, that’s right, I told y’all already that I have an amazing boyfriend, welp, he is great, buuuuuut he’s my first boyfriend if you don’t count the numerous sex-tastrophes before him. He is the first person to care about me genuinely in my life except for one singular person, who will not be named. How else will I keep you guys intrigued by the details of my boring, yawn filled, regular life? For Pete’s sake, I want to buy roller skates to make my life more interesting.

I should be going to bed. I know I’m a night owl but even 3 AM running on 6 hours of sleep is still a recipe for tired. Thanks for reading, I know I am a lowlife nobody writing a bunch of gibberish that no one wants to hear. Anyway, toodles.

Love you all, even if you don’t love me back,