🤍 been going through one hell of a season to finally come to a hard stop in the road of what i felt was my road of progress been feeling angry, overwhelmed and so many other negative feelings over the last few weeks; my thoughts have been flooding and drowning out any sound of reason the difficulty of living with anxiety and depression is recognizing certain situations before they snowball out of control till one finally loses all grip on life and sinks deep into that dark, cold isolating place took a long, hot shower last night; took a couple of melatonin and large cup of mamaki tea. then spent some quite time in prayer i have asked the Lord for patience; He answered with opportunities to learn patience i have asked the Lord for strength; He has given me opportunities to learn how to be strong I have asked the Lord for wisdom; He has given me opportunities to make wise choices by practicing prayers in all i do i cried last night, “i’m good on the lessons, God. I can’t take anymore. i’m tired and i feel weak. i don’t understand all that’s happening right now, I need your guidance” i woke up same time i do every morning at 415am, and the answer was as clear as day ultimately, it is not what i wanted. this path i’m on, & the detours that have come my way, are preparing me for something greater. a need greater than what i want at this time i just need to be patient, and trust in Him broke down in tears while working out this morning, God never fails to humble me in my time of need, my time of growth if He says “not yet”, i will swallow my pride and listen “11 The greatest among you will be your servant. 12 For those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted” - Matthew 23:11-12 the goal is to find the peace that only He can give me. there’s no price it can be bought with, no amount of fame can satisfy recentered and focused. thank you Lord let’s do this ✨ #HardLessonsLearned #PatienceIsAVirtue #Humble #Faith https://www.instagram.com/p/Cbwqbo6u5om/?utm_medium=tumblr
