#happyoneday

the leaves fall from the tree to re-bloom

much like i fell away from a life where i wasn’t sober

didn’t take the time to give more to the sad girl sitting in her room

but when the leaves fall and rot away

new ones grow and branch out again.

and the piles of leaves that settle into the breeze

are soon forgotten with flight

but the rustling sound you can still hear

reminds you of a fall before all was brought into life

nothing stops it just all withers dies and blooms

there’s love inside these eyes

trust me I am just as surprised!

still I march on with this plan I devised

don’t i wish that firing shots in the dark could ignite the fires burnt out in our hearts.

really meant to make it last since the warmth crept into my skin from the

start.

but the time apart only darkened my heart quaking in cold shivers

wishing that i could’ve delivered a better life and appreciate the moments

when i’d swore you’d be my wife

but its now the second and life is teaching heartbroken lessons

and without a question im still going to be okay alone

but i still will wish and wonder if somewhere your still understanding

the worlds a better place when your around.

but its all just a part of what made me i reckon

this is from me whispering onto the pages and breathing life into my words time takes my thoughts in because i’ve been brought up in the dark and smiles feel miles apart farther and few less real since I don’t have you. but how could you recling to an old fling while i was healing hoping to meet again but now im left with the sting and all I can think is “fuck remember when.” 

spinning in my head since the December news read of them

how could I do so badly ? 

will I always be so madly? not quite in love sadly.

can’t even stand up and say whose right..

what is it that makes sparks ignited in the brain to claim a heart;

 from the heart that wrestles to tame the shameful beast

the very monster blew out the flame and chained onto smoking up memories

in a December haze remembering seems to be the illness