You booked the night train for a reason
So you could sit there in this hurt
Neville was hunched over on the curb; his tie loosened and just hanging around his neck as he unbuttoned the top two buttons of his shirt. He moved his hand to hover over his chest as he could swear he could feel his heart breaking. The pain seemed so physical and real, he thought maybe he was having a heart attack. He barely had enough time to process what had just happened when the Knight Bus pulled up in front of him. He didnāt even really hear the words the conductor said as he stepped on board. He moved towards the back and laid down on one of the beds as the Knight Bus took off. His mind was still in shock so he barely registered himself responding to the conductorās question of where he was going.Ā
You had a speech, you're speechless
Love slipped beyond your reaches
And I couldn't give a reason
Luna had arrived back at her flat and just stood and stared at the empty front room. She had bought this back when she first left Hogwarts but she ended up spending so much time at Nevilleās that she never really made it a home. It was just a place she stayed sometimes. She moved forward finally toward the room in the back as she thought back to earlier in the evening.
Luna looked around the room. She sighed. Neville had gotten their friends together for Christmas and the party seemed to be in full swing now. She had noticed a couple of whispers and points towards her but she didnāt try to figure out what for. She was used to it. Not much had changed since they had left Hogwarts. She had kept the soft, dreamy smile on her face for the first hour of the party as she greeted her friends; Ginny, Harry, Ron, Hermione, as well as others in their class that she wasnāt as close to. Now that it had been a few hours, she was feeling distant. A tap on her shoulder brought her out of her daze as she turned around.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWhatāre you doing out here, Luna?ā Harry didnāt seem concerned, just curious. It caused a small to lift on to her face as she saw him.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āJust listening to the stars. They sure are talkative tonight.ā She looked back up towards the clear, but bright night sky as the moon was full and the stars seemed extra sparkly tonight before turning to look back at Harry. āBut letās go inside and see what our friends have to say.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Harry nodded and followed her in as she found her way towards Neville and Ginny. Nevilleās smile stretched even farther along his face as he saw her before tapping his glass to get everyoneās attention. He put his hand against her back as everyone turned to look at them.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWelcome, everyone. Merry Christmas! Itās lovely that you all made time to come join Luna and I for an evening together. I know weāre all very busy but it means a lot to us. I hope youāve enjoyed the party so far but I have something I would like to say, or rather do, with all of you here.ā Luna didnāt remember Neville telling her about anything extra for the party as he turned towards her. āLuna, you have brought me so much joy these past couple of years and I donāt think I wouldāve been able to get through the aftermath of the war without you.ā Oh no. Please donāt, is all Luna could think in her head as he continued talking. āWith all of our friends here to witness,ā he slowly got down on one knee, āIād like to ask for your hand in marriage and start a new chapter with you.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā It seemed he had more to say and she glanced around at all the smiling faces, understanding now what the pointing and stares were about. So she stopped him. āNeville,ā she started, trying to indicate that he should get up. His face dropped as his eyes narrowed in confusion but he did stand back up, āyouāre mistaken. You donāt want this. You donāt want me.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Her voice had become a whisper and Nevilleās matched her. āIs that what you think? Of course it is. You donāt have to worry about that.ā Luna was looking at the ground. āIs thisā¦not what you want?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āIām sorry, but no.āĀ
You told your family for a reason
Nevilleās eyes had fallen shut as he thought back to a month ago when heād visited his parents in St. Mungoās. He had been so excited to tell them all about how he truly felt like he had found the one. How he let them know it was Luna, the dreamy girl he had brought in for them to meet the Christmas before. How he was going to propose and how excited he was to share his life with someone the way they had shared theirs together. How he hoped that they were proud of who he was bringing in to be a part of the family as he thought they would be. He had talked to them for over two hours about how he had planned to do it and when he had started to leave, his mother had grabbed his hand, like she usually did, and gave him a chocolate wrapper, but he felt like she had been responding to something he had said and he had thought it was a sign.
No crowd of friends applauded
Your hometown skeptics called itĀ
Luna had began to change out of her beautiful dress as she thought back to how everyone went from being so happy to empty silence and how she never wanted it to be like that.
She had tried to show how bad she felt on her face, but she didnāt think it was working. She looked around the room once more, seeing everyone looking so uncomfortable, and no longer felt as if she should be at the party. She turned and gave Neville one last kiss on the cheek, whispering āIām really sorryā, and then turning to walk out the door. As she left she heard one of the girls whisper not-so-quietly āThatās what happens when you get involved with Loony.ā
I never was ready, so I watch you go
Sometimes you just don't know the answer
'Til someone's on their knees and asks you
Luna let tears fall as she curled up in her bed that night. She loved Neville with all her heart but she didnāt want to marry him. And she couldnāt figure out why. All she knew was she couldnāt say yes. Something had told her to say no and so she did. Neville didnāt deserve someone who couldnāt love him and be at the same place as he was. If he hadnāt tried to propose, she wouldāve most likely still been in the relationship, oblivious to the fact that it wasnāt what she wanted, no matter how loved she was by Neville. No matter how much she cared for him.
Your mom's ring in your pocket
Her picture in your wallet
Neville sighed as he was once again at the same place he was a year ago. He had gotten to know Hannah very well near the end of his relationship with Luna and after everything that happened last Christmas, Hannah really supported him and soon their friendship grew into a romance. He was very skeptical at first, but he knew this was different. Hannah was always present. When he went this time to see his parents and tell them about it, he left with his momās ring. He doesnāt know how he got it, to be honest, but he hesitantly told them all about Hannah, how she made him smile everyday, how she always was up for an adventure with him, how she never seemed distant. How he loved her but hadnāt said it yet. And after his time with them, he received another gum wrapper as usual from his mom, quickly shoving it in his pocket, telling his mom he loved her before leaving. It wasnāt until he got home that when he went back to the gum wrapper, he realized something was wrapped inside. And there was his momās ring.
Ā Ā Ā He took that as a sign and that night told Hannah he loved her. A few months later, he was ready to propose even though they hadnāt been together a full year. This time, though, he was taking Hannah to a dinner, just the two of them. Precautions, one could say, in case she also ends up saying no. He looked around as Hannah walked through the door. Her smile lit up the entire restaurant and he stood up to pull out her chair. Here we go he thought to himself.
You won't remember all my
Christmas came and went the next year and Luna hadnāt seen her friends since the party. She had been painting a lot. Helping her dad find more information for creatures he wanted to share about in The Quibbler each edition. She had spent much time alone which she was okay with. She was learning about herself. It was approaching the new year and Luna was trying to decide what she would do for her next big adventure when she came across the most recent edition of The Daily Prophet. Usually she paid no mind to the paper, but a headline caught her eye.
LONGBOTTOM AND ABBOTT TO WED THIS SPRING
She saw a picture of them and could tell how happy they were. It brought a smile to her face as she realized he had found someone who could love him the way she couldnāt. I should reach out to Ginny and Harry she thought to herself as she felt she could move forward knowing everything worked out the way it should. Itās a good thing she listened to the stars that night.