im literally 1, 076.3 from home, auckland (im in christchurch) and honestly shits not perfect, i dont have it all together but FUCK i cannot remember the last time i was this happy. shit yeah ive nearly drunken a whole bottle of wine BUT fuck i cannot explain it. SO much weight is off my shoulder. IDK why or HOW but fuck. i love it. i dont want to go home. its so hard for me to say, bcos i know i’ll upset people but !!!!1 im so excited. i feel like this is the beginning to me. i don’t wanna stay in just ONE place anymore. or have anything tie m down. im not sure, im still trying to figure it out. ive only been here 3 days. maybe its because im away from people who have control over me and my ultimate decisions and maybe bcos i’ve been making my decisions based on others reactions. maybe its bcos i have control over my disorders and no one to interfer. I DONT KNOWand im not saying its not going to be easy here but honestly. I AM SO HAPPY. BEING here makes me so so happy. and light. IM SO HAPPY TO WAKE UP IN THE MORNING!!!!!!!!!!!!
